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So this weekend wasn't very relaxing at all. Friday after school, Tyler (bf) came over and at 8ish we went to a party at the church I kind of attend (for my uncle. Because I dont believe in god)and hung out there until 11:30. It was really fun! ^-^. Then today I got materials for making a tutu and then me and my family went to Hudson's, then me and Tyler hung out some more with a friend who was visiting. Then I went to work and worked my a** off! I also trained my friend who just got a job there, but she was really making me upset because she kept trying out-do me. But then Dave finally admitted I was the coolest 16 year old he knows. XD. I even recorded it!!!! AWESOMENESS! I was so excited. I still am! XD. And he hugged me. I seriously look up to Dave so much! He's really awesome. Almost like a brother figure. He's mean like a brother. He picks on me like a brother. He's huge and guy-like like a brother. XD. And Dustin admitted it too! Right now Im laying in bed all comfy. :3. I wanna sleep. So I just might.

Time Going By FAST

WOW it's already February. It's crazy nuts. Not only is it already Feb. but it's almost half way done already!!! CRAZYNESS! Well Im not sure what half of Feb. is but whatever. XD. Having a job sure has made me really busy. On the days I have off all I want to do is lie around watching anime or being with friends! Haha. And of course, I've been neglecting my computer a bit more thanks to my phone. And Angry Birds. Gosh that game is unbelievably annoying! I love it and hate it at the same time. I love playing it but when I can't beat a level I get pissed off and stop playing it XD. Today was a pretty good day. I was talking to zee boyfriend...and he pretty much told me what Im getting for Valentine's day except for one thing. Haha. Funny stuff. I know exactly what Im getting him. Well I got it already XD. I say the relationship is going pretty good. The thing is, Im too nervous to do anything. I can't even hug him Im so nervous! XD. WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME! I was too nervous to hold his hand and I ended up doing it anyways but it only happened that one time. I never get nervous like this and I have no idea why Im nervous now. X_X.

Today I found out my aunt's boyfriend and my mom got into another fight Sunday, because he told her that I'm on the "s*** list" for my job because I called in twice. TWICE. The first time I had a really bad migraine. The second time I was sick and didn't even go to school. My eye was watery, my chest muscles were sore from coughing and sneezing so many times, and I was really weak. It was almost like I had the flu, but I didn't. lol. That was last week. Yet he's called in way more than 2 times, yet he's perfectly fine and isn't on bad terms with our boss. I don't know what compells him to think that he's better than everyone else that works there, because he isn't!!!! It's really annoying. Especially when he starts saying crap about me. I try really hard to do my best because this is my first job! It's not like I sit around and take a billion smoke breaks and gossip and not clean anything while everyone else does. lol Okay now my rant about that is done.

Now I want to talk about the new anime I am watching. The english name for it is Baka and Test and I am feeling extra lazy with trying to remember long japanese anime names. So there you go. Baka and Test. I saw that there wasn't a category (sp?) for it which made me kind of sad. I really enjoy it. Im on the 7th ish episode and it's just too funny and entertaining. Im actually working on 3 different anime at once, so that is why I have not been logging any of them recently. Im not quite sure what I am going to do with that. Plus I barely have time to even watch the anime, so I don't have very much time to go on here after every episode or so and quickly type a review for it so I may just start waiting til I finish the series to give my thoughts. I am on episode 18 out of 26 in Samurai Champloo. I really enjoy that one. I used to watch it when I was much younger and watched it when it was on Adult Swim. I was probably in like 3rd or 4th grade. Can you believe that? Haha. So crazy. I can't believe I watched half of the stuff I used to watch back then. I go and rewatch it and think "Oh that's why Im so messed up and derranged." lmao XD. But it was on Netflix (as is Baka and Test) so I decided to watch it. There's a ton of anime on Netflix. I looove it. Haha. So the 3 Im working on is Baka and Test, Lucky Star, and Samurai Champloo.

Baka and Test: 6 out of 13 (in the first series/season)
Samurai Champloo: 18/26
Lucky Star: 15/24

And of course I have yet to finish Sekaiichi Hatsukoi but I dont have a very good attention span so that's why Im watching so many at once. XD. There's just so many I want to finish but I dont have enough time in one day. I can't wait until the summer comes. XD. I will have SOOO many completed<3.

Okay I got a lot off my mind by scraping it all into this. I have a lot to talk about all of the time, but no one to really talk about it with that actually cares. Yay me. lol.

Update

I've worked the past 3 days so I havn't been on too much. Oh and Wednesday I got an adroid phone, so that's been keeping me distracted, also. Played angry birds for the first time Thursday, too.

Tonight me and my mom got into it really badly. She decided everyone BUT me is going out of town to go to a big mall that we don't have. But I'm stuck going to work and my mom won't go around my plans and she is being very inconsiderate. It really hurts that I can't spend time with my family like I used to and the fact that they arn't even caring that I get to go or not. My mom especially. I cried for hours on end. Around 8:30 I went out to eat with my friends and boyfriend and that got my mind off of it but I get home and I just want to cry some more because how she is treating me and how she is acting. She won't talk to me. She won't look at me. And all because MY feelings got hurt that they are doing fun things without me. It really really hurts.. And she doesn't even CARE!!!!!

Before and Now

So before me and my ex friend had problems, we depended on eachother way too much. I was always the most independent, but we still relied on eachother a great deal. I always thought that I needed somebody, a friend or a boyfriend. I always thought that I could never walk by myself. That I could never do anything alone. Last night, I had confronted someone because they were confessing their love to my boyfriend. Then the girl goes and tells me no one likes me. I laughed. Then she told me that the world would be better off without me. I laughed even harder. But it got me thinking (I think a lot). I am deffinately aware I am not the most liked person in my school, but I am also aware that the matter of the fact is I don't care. This is just highschool! Why the hell should I care what people think of me? I may not have a ton of friends, but I am allowed to say that I don't have to feel the need to comform just so I can have friends or so I can fit in and feel belonged. This may or may not sound conceited, but I love who I am and I am not willing to change my personality for anyone. Not at all. I am who I am and you can either take it or leaving because guess what! IM NOT GOING ANYWHERE!!!

Comments?

It won't let me comment or see the comments! Since this advertisement for the new anime, Yamada's First Time, it puts the comment box thingy behind the main thingy. I know Im not very descriptive. x_x. But anyways, the only way I can read the comments is to put it in "compatible" mode or whatever but then it wont let me reply. HOW DO I FIX THIS??!!! IM DUMB!!! haha