Okay, this isn't a rant like the last one I just posted..but I need to get my feelings out. These past few months I feel like I have been "suffering" (not really but it's a good way to emphasize what's been going on) alone. Here on one side is my best friend who's tired of hearing about my problems and then acts like I don't care about hers. I sure do complain a lot. I'll admit it. Twitter, that's my ultimate complaining place. It's something that is there for me when I have no one there with me that moment. She doesn't HAVE to follow me...and that's the main place I complain. And I am usually only complaining about my sister or other idiots like her. Plus, since school has started, a lot more stress has came onto the both of us (My best friend and I) so I can see how that would work. But here I am trying not to piss her off (because she's been very touch lately, almost anything you say would piss her off) and I try not to complain or talk very much about problems at home. Then on the other side is my boyfriend. He's so amazing and is ALWAYS there for me...well as much as he relaly can be...but now that I really have no one to talk to (Because my best friend is the only one I feel cares when I do talk about it...well not so much anymore..but yeah..) I don't want to drop it all onto him. I feel like I am already drowning him with all the stuff I have to say as it is. Of course I have other friends, but I don't know who could go to a stranger and start talking about how messed up their life is...and expect them to even know half of the story because you have barely known them. Even though that's kind of what I'm doing now, but I don't know who reads this...I just use it as something to help me...and such. My best friend, she has someone else she talks to..her other best friend...(or maybe her only best friend seeing that it doesn't feel like she even cares about our friendship anymore) so when she needs someone to talk to, that other girl is there for her. While I sit here in need to talk to someone that won't get mad at me. I don't have that other outlet like she does. I'm sure I don't even have her as one anymore.