I feel lied to by one of the only close friends I have. I know that something about them doesn't feel right. Im not panicking or freaking out like usual so I don't think it's paranoia. And my other friends are starting to be bitter towards me. Im not entirely sure what to do, but what I do know, is that I could live without having close friends...but Im too scared to. I just want to break away from a social life so I don't have to put up with inconsiderate jerks who hate themselves and everyone around them. I don't want to put up with liars and people who just live to hate. Right now, Im just trying to fake it through the rest of the year. If that's what I got to do then that's what Im gotta do. Just to last the rest of the year.