Hi guys. I've been busy a lot! I hang out a lot more now that I have a boyfriend so I spend a lot less time here at home. Today I decided I need a day to myself.

I don't get it, but everytime that I am in a relationship (especially in one that I care about a LOT) I get really down and sad. Right now I wonder if it's the fact that I'm scared of being hurt or something. Or even maybe the fact that I don't feel like I'm good enough. I hate it so much. Will I never be happy? I don't have problems with being myself and I'm very comfortable with myself. I don't think I'm ugly, I don't think I'm stupid or gross or fat. I just don't understand it at all. v_v. I've been so stressed out and so concerned with so much. I also feel bad because I always come on here and talk about when I'm upset. Rarely when I am happy.

I'll talk about happy things now. Kurtis is amazing and he always knows how to make me smile. I love being with him and it's 10 times better this time than it was the first time. I've been in a bad mood lately, so I feel bad because I don't think I've been the greatest person to be around. But I'm really trying.