After Saturday at work with what happened when I got sick..things havn't felt the same to me. I just...I'm getting into a depressive state. I hate it, because it's not like me. Tonight I hate to work with that manager. Everything seemed back to normal. I don't think it was. I just felt down the whole time. The new guy was upsetting me and says hurtful things and my friend tried killing herself. And he didn't even care (he's closer to her than I am). It pissed me off. Then I messed up and my manager and a coworker was making me feel really guilty, mostly my manager. They made me feel like a complete failure. Before work we had talked about how to take fries out after the fry scoop was in the dish pit and he told me not to use tongs. So the time came when I needed fries and I asked him what I should do if I can't use the tongs. He told me to use my hands...my HANDS. Hot, hot french fries right out of the friers and I am supposed to put rubber gloves on and pick them up...with my hands. He got pissy because I wasn't sure if he was kidding or not and he did it himself and was an ass about it to me. He was so mean. He acted like I was stupid. I just...I feel awful. I don't know what to do. I don't like it... Gah.. I have to work with him again Saturday... I just.. I feel helpless.