Today has been rather boring but relaxing. I need to be doing the homework that I have. I have a LOT of it. I'm not really looking forward to school this week, but when am I? haha. I'm pretty worried even though I don't feel it. I know that's what I'm supposed to feel, but it's not very strong which is probably the medicine's fault. If that makes sense. I am worried about Brandon, but I'm not entirely sure what to do about it. He has this thing coming up that is kind of a big deal. Not just kind of, but a really big deal. .. I just keep thinking to myself that everything happens for a reason. Everything. It's all fate and it'll all work itself out eventually. I have to keep telling myself that about myself too. With this anxiety and medicine. Both of which have been a really big pain in the ass. Especially as of right now because I'm feeling rather numb to just about everything, but I have so many thoughts that need to come out. As usual. It's just getting harder and harder everyday to express them and even be able to get the words out. Regardless of everything that has been going on, I just feel like everything is going to be alright. Which is unusual for me because I always have doubts atleast about something. Right now I'm missing Brandon and I can't stop thinking about him. Pretty crazy haha.