I feel like I haven't gotten around to writing much lately. This past week has been pretty stressful for me. I feel like no matter who I am with, my friends, my family, Brandon, I feel like I am miles and miles apart from them emotionally. Almost like I'm on a whole different level and I'm unable to connect with any of them. I feel like no matter how much I reach out it doesn't work. I then get discouraged and frustrated to the point where right now I don't want to be around anyone and would rather sit alone here in my room. Although at the very same time all I want is to see Brandon..and get a hug from him. It was really a choice I made not to see him today because I figured I could clean my room and get the time I needed to gather my thoughts. I feel like I have gathered them and gathered them as much as I could/can but yet here I am still feeling so lost and helpless. Hopeless.

Through all of these ridiculous feelings, I have some good news. I got a job this week and then today, I took my AP Euro test on WWI and the Russian Revolution. I was extremely worried about it because I haven't been doing so good lately and wasn't feeling confident. I did spend a good hour and a half doing the terms and objective worksheets he gives us to help us study thinking it wouldn't pay off but figured it could help me atleast a little. As I was taking the test I could feel my heart start beating faster as I felt uneasy about the answers I filled in. Overall I thought it was easy but everyone else said they thought it was hard. THAT made me even more nervous because I always bombed the ones that I believed to be easy. I checked and nearly had an anxiety attack waiting for the screen to come up only to find out that I got a 100% on it! He did curve it. He took 10 points off, but I don't care I got a 100%! lol :D Yay!