Well regarding my last posts, I feel like things are starting to get better.. Although I am still feeling disconnected with everyone. Now that I think of it it's almost like the book Winesburg, OH. I think that's how it's spelled. I feel like one of the characters, unable to connect and communicate with anyone. Thinking about it even now really gets to me. I tried really hard to yesterday and no matter what I do or what I say I feel like there's no progress-even if I did make a little progress. I feel like a slug. Sounds sick 'cause slugs are slimy and gross (but oddly cute XD). I have had more time to think about things today, but I ended up finally finishing my room which kept my mind off of a lot. Now here I am sitting here with nothing to do with all these thoughts floating around my stupid brain that never wants to give me a break! lol. I'm just really hoping something good will start coming out of everything, because no matter how many times I try to scream out for help, nothing but silence comes out. Then I get angry at the world wondering "why..why won't you help me" but they can't. They can't help me if I can't speak out and tell them what's wrong. I hardly know what's wrong myself. I feel like I'm back to square 1 in seventh grade again and I don't even want to bother talking to my family-or anyone about it because I know that even if my cries for help do reach someone, there's nothing they can do to help me anyways. I don't mean to sound extremely depressing or anything, I'm just trying to get my feelings out. It's much needed since it's all flooding to me after hours of not thinking about anything. lol
Anyways, I got my room clean and it's really nice. I still have a lot and I still feel extremely cluttered, but I already got rid of 5 bags of stuff throughout the cleaning process and it was hard enough doing that so I figure by the time next year comes around I will dwindle away to only the stuff that I really need/want. lol.I also drank an energy drink which was a poor decision because I really don't take those very well. I got really sick from it and I only drank a third of it. XD. How pathetic! Why do I even try drinking those damn things?? It's like taking drugs or something. My body just doesn't take them well AT ALL. I'm thinking I'm about to go play animal crossing to just relax.
Sunday Funday lol
