Well, I feel like for the most part a lot has calmed down finally after the past couple of weeks. I mean, there's still stuff going on that causes some tensions but I'm not complaining, because everything is feeling much better than before.

Right now I'm laying in bed just thinking, which is never good for me because I think too much haha. The topic that's mostly taking over my brain tonight is Brandon. The best topic of them all. haha. :). I'm just reflecting on everything that has happened in the past 2 1/2--almost 3 months of being together. I can pick out the happiest memories I have had with him right now. The first one, him sneaking over when my mom was at work. I remember that day, I was in need of human company. Badly. And he had been on my mind for a week or so. I missed him. Gosh, I was in such denial about it because of the ridicule I have gotten from friends and family from even thinking about having feelings for him. That day was one of the first great days I had for a while then, especially after losing my job at Wendy's and the great people that went along with it. I'd have to say the next memory would be when he took me to see The Hobbit and when I got home I was accused of having sex with him. Then I remember going to the mall with him and being dressed up as Pinkie Pie then later that day going to Devin's house to hang out with all of them. Then the night he didn't have a way home or anywhere to stay so he just ended up staying at my house. First time I guy has EVER slept over at my house (that wasn't family or a family friend). We tried so hard to stay up. I couldn't, he did. Then the next day we had sex in my car at a park. haha. The list goes on and on. Winter Carnival, staying over at his house (with a friend covering for me) for the first time, etc. I really could go on and on. It really hasn't felt like 3 months, it feels like it was just yesterday we were at Menards messing around like children.

I really miss him right now, I really wish I could have seen him today. I just know that this is what love feels like. This is what it feels like to have everything yet nothing at the same time <3. To have one person and one person only on your mind the first thing in the morning and the very last second before I pass out at night...