hullo! :P
i ish me, got a problem with that?
ya didnt think so!

well, i got contacts today

my eyes feel horrible but i think its so gonna be worth it...i hate glasses.
hopefully i can get them out. and back in. cuz i didnt put them in myself or take them out at the eye doctors...it took to long so they did it for me. lol kinda sad...

SHES COMIN BACK!! ^o^

ok like my bestest friend EVER is comin home in two weeks. she moved across country and i havnt seen her since last year!! i wish she was comin next week tho since we gots spring break then but hey at least i get to see her!

today kinda sucks tho..i was soo mad..i've been too lazy to download itunes onto this new computer for a couple months and i finally did it and now i have to redownload all my songs back on it :(

youtube vid

ok this vid may or may not be funny to some of you, but this is my brother's (hot) friend dancing lol well i hope u like it. and yes its supposed to suck. oh and also this is my house he's at. not the best lookin part of it lol it my bro's room.

im bored soo..

im so bored so i figured i'd post a pic of myself. u know ur all curious to see what i look like =P im not really too pretty or anything so be prepared for this...

i thought i would forget..

i thought i would be able to go on with my normal life after it happened..but its just so hard..i mean, my grandpa goes to the cemetary to "talk" to her everyday and its hard to see him now..and my dad..my dad isnt the same either...for the very first time i've seen him show his weak side. never once in my life have i seen my dad cry until this all had to happen..the things they want to give me...i'm not sure if i want to take it. i do and i dont at the same time..its just so confusing..

all the little things u think wont be too hard to forget about turn into major deals..i hate this so much..i feel bad for the ppl who have had worse deaths..it would be so hard for me to make that..i can barely make this..

in loving memory: