So, here's my World Page designed especially for me. For those of you who aren't familiar with me, I'm an aspiring Manga-ka (at least in my own mind) and I enjoy many things in life, including, but not limited to: sword-fights, squirrels, lingual jokes, shiny rocks, and strawberries.
Also, I was born in Texas, but raised in Montana. No, I don't ride horses, or boil water over a campfire to heat it, and as a matter of fact, I hate Westerns! I don't have an accent (y'all) and I don't wear a ten-gallon cowboy hat with chaps. I'm a normal, everyday average citizen of America... who wishes he were somewhere else. XD I'm also agnostic, so don't come preaching to me about anything, okies? And, I won't throw you down a well, okies? Yay! Friends!!!
"You have to be realistic about terrorism. Certain groups of people, certain groups, Muslim fundamentalists, Christian fundamentalists, Jewish fundamentalists, and just plain guys from Montana, are going to continue to make life in this country very interesting for a long, long time."
~George Carlin
Or, check out our DeviantArt page [Shiro-Jinja] that Angelo (Fai no Tenshi) and I share!
Well, hope you enjoy your visit and sayonara for now! ^_^
I feel sick this morning... everytime I burp, I can taste the nachos I ate for dinner last night...
Last January, when I got that stomach flu, I'd eaten a taco that night, and since then, the taste of tacos is just nauseating to me. I think that's what's going on here.
Guess I'll have to have my nachos without taco meat next time... guh... I hope I don't get sick... TT^TT
Doesn't help that I have a test I HAVE to go to in Psychology today... I wanna cry right now, so bad...
I can't think of it... what describes how I've been feeling the last few days.
I feel... like I should feel something, but I don't... I've been faking smiles and laughs... and when no one's around, I stare off into space and just kinda... check out, y'know?
I'm not sad or depressed. I'm not stressed or really anxious.
I just AM, I guess.
D'you know how hard it is to be intimate with your lover when you're feeling this... way?
Maybe I'm stuck in a rut... yeah, just 4 or 5 weeks into school and things already feel monotonous. But, what can I do to change things up? With the way my schedule is, there's really nothing I CAN do. *sigh* I don't even know if this is the reason for my state of being right now.
Can someone help me figure out the word that describes me and give me a diagnosis?
XDDDD
I'm saddened, though, I didn't get to see the b/f at all this weekend. SO, I'm going over there tonight after school. ^3^ Be back this evening~! XD
But, yeah, I've recently discovered that I REALLY like vanilla yogurt... X3
Chocolate's still good, as pudding, but if I'm gonna have yogurt, I'd prefer vanilla.
This was a random post to let you know I'm still alive.
Comment at your leisure.
I think I was having a temporary mental breakdown. I'm doing fine now, I think the monotony of life was getting to me, or something.
I went to visit my teacher, as she asked, and it turns out nothing is really wrong. I mean, I could be doing better, but in all honesty, I'm not doing bad. She basically said, "Don't be afraid to look for new things to try in foreign languages. If you don't try for more, I can't tell you what you're doing wrong or right."
This goes against everything I was taught by my French teacher in high school. She always said, "Only use what you know. Don't complicate things by trying to learn more than you need to."
I guess I just needed to learn how to do the complete opposite of what I'd learned to do. XD
Then, Sensei asked me why I looked so pale and ghostly. I'd had an insulin reaction earlier this morning and suddenly, she was more concerned about my diabetes than how I was doing in class. :3 That's how I know I have a teacher who really cares.
I mean, the teachers I had last year never called me into their office if they thought I'd needed help. I let her know that I appreciated everything. ^_^
After class, I went to my boyfriend's house. His grandpa came home today and we got to see how his new oxygen tank works. He has to be on it 24/7, so now he has to quit smoking cold turkey. That's gonna be ROUGH since he's been smoking since he was 12 years old. Doing the math, he's been smoking for 68 years! o_O; He might be grumpy... <_<;
Well, I'm gonna go for now.
Thanks you, guys, for your concern. Now I know I can count on you guys for reassurance. ^_^ *hugs to all*
Gotta go see my Japanese teacher today. She specifically asked me to come to her office today... I'm worried about how that's going to turn out, because I've been doing mediocre in her class, I think... about like everyone else. I know I'm not the only one being summoned; one or two of the other kids are too... *sigh*
It's not like I'm getting fired from a job. I'm sure she wants to help me.
And, yet... I just wanna sit in a corner and cry for some reason.
I know I'm not moody because of that, though. There's only positive things there. Help. That's what I'm getting. I wanna go to the b/f's house.
Damn. Yesterday was such a good day, too...
Help.
Feels like there's something looming over me, though... foreboding...
Help!
Like a demon. Something I don't want nearby. Depression, oppression, submission. It feeds on sorrow and fear.
HELP!
Why am I feeling this way...
I haven't done anything wrong recently. It's not guilt. Fear... why fear? Who's there? Does Fear have a body...?
Fuck, no, I'm not on drugs, if you're asking. I just... don't know what to do...
