Well, these last few days have been... wow.
Let's see...
OH! I thought I would have to quit college because I didn't think I could get all my loans and such sorted out in time. Turns out, it's all good.
My boyfriend helped me through it... somewhat... He mostly chatted with me on Y!M while I ranted and raved and came close to tears about getting everything done. I mean, I know he cares, but it's hard to express emotion through chat as it is... his choices of words were stressing, to say the least.
But, it's all taken care of now and I get to stay.
See, I have a DEEP-ROOTED fear of not living up to my parents' expectations. I always push myself to do all I can and when I fail, I'm hardest on myself.
Example: My friend failed a test. I comfort them and say, "It's okay. We all fail sometimes. You'll do better next time, right? It's okay!"
I fail a test. I tell myself, "GAWD, Yoh! WHAT are the parents gonna think?! How could I be so stupid?!" *hits the books and stays in room until he knows the information front and back.*
I was just so depressed and stressed out. Thankfully, a wonderful lady at the FAidOffice helped me out and now I'm on the right track. ^_^
I just need to find a way to make money...
I'M DOING COMMISSIONS! Please! I'm a starving artist trying to get through college! If you're AT ALL interested, take a look at my DevArt info HERE and PM me via TheOtaku.com... unless you have a dA account too. Just send me a note! ^_^
School is going well. I'm flying through French and doing really well in Japanese! I can write in Hiragana now, WITHOUT references! XD I also know time, numbers 1-20, and certain verbs and nouns, along with past tense and future tenses as well! ^_^ I'm on a ROLL! :D
*sigh* I don't get to see my b/f today since I'm at work. BUT! At least I'm working! XD I might get Tuesdays and Thursdays! :3 I'd like that.
I'm also going to Anime Club tomorrow night. :3
I feel like I've been clingy to by b/f lately... he says he's okay with it but, after my rant-episode yesterday and all the stress I've been through, I feel like I've been bothering him too... I'll bring it up tonight if we get to talk with each other at all. He's at school 'til 9PM!!! @_@; If not, I'll see him tomorrow morning.
Yeah, I'm afraid of disappointing my parents AND annoying my b/f. Even though he says he likes clingy guys and that it's all ok... and even though my parents are easy on me when I fail and support my art. I still feel obligated, y'know? *sigh*
Well, enough of that. I'm sure your eyes are bleeding from reading so much. XD Thanks if you got this far! *huggles*
Yosei's random fact for today: I went to the restroom before Japanese class today. Upon walking in, there was a stall with a turd over a foot long! NO JOKES! XD Funny thing is, instead of being repulsed and shouting "EW!" I said aloud, "Wow, I wonder how long they had to sit there to put THAT out..." XD XD XD
I fail, but it's okay. *goes back to homework and Sam-kun's commission*
I love you guys~!
~Yosei~
BTW! New Siggy!!!
