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Well, Monday was fun, sorta. ^_^ It went much better than Friday, for sure. My b/f was happy and playful.
Sunday:
I was feeling down because of some stuff the school messed up with on something with my bank, so my b/f agreed to meet up with me at the mall around noon.
We ate pizza and walked around and such. I saw vol 20 of FullMetal Alchemist! But, I didn't buy it... it'll be there when I have more money... I'm trying to save up! >_<
After that, we went back to his house and basically just hung out. It was good fun. ^_^
Monday:
School was alright. I did really well on my Japanese test, and I got the highest score in the class on my French test! >_< I was sooooo happy! XD I've also been working on my grade in Japanese Cultures class. I contributed A LOT yesterday! YAY! I'm gonna do well on the next midterm, just you watch! >3 Math was math... dull and boring and tedious. I could skip (absences don't matter much in that class) but, my b/f's in class at that time too and I'd be bored anyway. So, I go.
Also, my b/f's first University Band performance was last night! SQUEE! He played the clarinet! They only played 4 songs and it was short. But, it was all good. I enjoyed it, even though I sat by myself in the top row the whole time. XD
Then, as I was leaving (It was about 8:30 at night and DARK) I almost hit a kid. First of all, it's DARK out and he's wearing ALL BLACK. Second of all, NO ONE goes out on a MONDAY night to return at freakin' 8:30PM! NO ONE!!! DX But, it's alright. No one was hit, no one was hurt. All is well. I was just scared crapless that he was gonna chase me down and mug me or something. XD
Today:
It was okay. I was up all night because I was too hot and my dogs wouldn't stay still. Kept wanting in and out of the room. Then, I had a low blood sugar around 4am that I had to take care of. TT^TT
French was easy. None of my friends showed up, though. I hope they're okay... Japanese was alright. We just had a test and the teacher showed up 15 minutes late... oh well. I feel like I did well anyway. We'll see in the next couple of days. ;3
After that, I was done with school for the day, so I went to my b/f's house so we could hang out until he his classes started. Of course, we got a little intimate, which is fine. As long as we both enjoyed it! ;D
Finally, I left when he had to and stopped at McDonald's before coming home.
The burger tasted WONDERFUL! But, I think their fry-oil was bad. Some of the fries tasted like the smell of dead skunk. TT^TT It was NASTEH! >.<
Then, I took a shower and did some homework before falling asleep for half an hour on the couch and just about 40 minutes ago, my sister came home and woke me up. ^_^
Then, I got on my laptop (where I am right now! XD) and my b/f was on. He had a quick break, so he'd hopped on his computer.
But, he said there was something bothering him and he was guilt-ridden. He only had about 5 minutes to talk, but he said he felt guilty because he felt that, recently, he'd been using me for my body. :(
I told him, "It's okay. I know you love me genuinely and I love you too. You know that, right?" He said, "Yeah."
Eh, here's the convo, if you're interested. Otherwise, just skip to the bottom of the post. :P
B/F: *nuzzles*
B/F: I have to go, like SOON...but yeah...I've been all guilt ridden for a while
B/F: will talk when I can
godlyguardian: I've done most of my homework and napped for about 30 mi
godlyguardian: oh, okay...
godlyguardian: *kisses* I wish I could be there to help... can't talk now? It's okay. I can wait. *hug*
B/F: well...maybe I could talk fora LITTLE bit, but my class is at 4:45....
godlyguardian: Ah, so you've got about 5 minutse
B/F: yeah
godlyguardian: that's alright. If you have to, you can wait
B/F: I don't know how you feel, but I almost feel like I've used you for your body, and I've been feeling so god awful about it after this morning....
godlyguardian: really? I feel fine...
godlyguardian: It's okay, love. I know you love me. You know that too, right?
B/F: I know I love you, for so many things, I know you love me too...it's just felt one sided to me lately, and I can't help but beat myself up over it
B/F: and damnit I have to go...
godlyguardian: Well, then, we'll have to come up with a way to fix that
godlyguardian: oh, okies. We can talk later, okay? I love you!!
B/F: okies...I love you too
Umm, so... can anyone help me think of a way to fix that? How do I get him to realize it's okay to feel genuinely, HUMANELY male sometimes? We both know there's real love there, but he seems guilt-stricken and I feel bad. I want him to be happy. Does anyone know how I can knock some sense into him?
Thanks for reading and thanks for any help, guys! I know I can count on you! *huggles all around*
See you around!
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