So, I'm two weeks away from Finals and I'm stressed out- though, what's new right?
A list of my stresses:
*I need to find a job- no success so far
*College- need to think a future plan to help pay of loans
*College- homework is piling up
*Homework- 70% of my homework is done online, and my internet has been down for the last week or two, FUCK!
*Boyfriend- he's buying me all these things for christmas and I have yet to find a THING for him! He's hard to shop for, first off, but also, I'm poorer than a church mouse, where as he seems to be doing fine financially.
*Diabetes- that's a CONSTANT stress, to be honest
*College- I would like to do well
*College- FINALS are soon!
*Parents- I'm eternally afraid of not living up to their expectations or disappointing them
Another thing to add to my list:
So, I've had this little patch of dry-skin on the back of my right thigh for a while and my b/f has known about it and such. But, that's all I've thought it was- a little patch of dry skin.
However, I've noticed three other patches starting to form as well- one on my left arm, another lower down on my right leg, and the last I found today on my left hip. I thought, "Hmm... I dunno what this is. I think I'll ask my b/f, since he knows so much about medical stuffs."
First, he asks, "Do they itch?"
No.
Then, "Well, it's not a fungal infection. It's not flesh-eating bacteria, because that would 'abscess' and die. So, it's either A) hives from over-stressing or B) skin cancer."
Of course, the words 'skin cancer' scared me shitless and I almost broke into tears in front of him! However, he said his mother often gets hives like mine when she's stressed out and that list I wrote above this doesn't cover HALF of my stresses. So, I'm hoping it's just hives... Anyhoo, I'm gonna tell my mom about 'em (so far, they've been hidden because I've thought they'd just disappear on their own) and probably go to the free clinic tomorrow and get 'em checked out.
Please, PLEASE let them be hives! >.< I can't handle ANOTHER stress to add to my growing list! TT^TT
I'm so scared.
I came home today and cried just because I'm scared.
I don't know what to do! I don't know where to go! I just wanna be held! So, please, some comforting words would be much appreciated.
.:~*+Yosei+*~:.
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