I had a shit day. It was so bad, I'm not even going to BOTHER using that stupid little censor bar for all of you who have virgin eyes. >( If you don't like it, TOUGH NUTS! You can just leave...
*waits*
Are you gone yet?
Well, if you aren't, here's where the f*cking rant starts...
I'm a total and complete failure, I swear to the gods!
Got my french quiz from last week back and lo and behold! A "C"! GAWD! It was the world's EASIEST french quiz and I frickin' AVERAGED on it! WHY?! Because the grammar-Nazi teacher said in the instructions to write things in PRESENT tense when she meant FUTURE!
Do you KNOW differences between FUTURE and PRESENT tense verbs in FRENCH? Sadly enough, I DO! And, I WOULD have gotten them all RIGHT, but because she put in a trick question AND lied on the instructions, I missed points! On top of THAT, she was like, "Translate these french terms into English"
Then, you look at the terms and 1/3 of them aren't in the fuckin' textbook, NOR had I EVER seen them before!
So, I bring this to her attention, like a good student, and she says, "Sorry, I can't change your grade. You misspelled this, this, and THIS anyway... heck, this grade should be LOWER!"
LOWER!
I... will... fuckin... GAHHHH!!! *goes into convulsions*
What's worse?
My boyfriend got an "A-"!!! *crawls into a hole*
He's all, "Yeah, I learned most of these words when I was IN France..."
I almost threw my textbook at him. >(
I totally would've been able to go to France too, if I hadn't gotten diabetes, spent $7000 on the pump, and ended up in the hospital! It was only $3000 to go... MUCH LESS than diabetes!!! D<
THEN! My stupid/expensive insulin pump decided to jam up. My sugars shot up to NEAR-FATAL levels (no thanks to that goddamn bagel I had from breakfast)!!! So, I had to SKIP Japanese class to go home to fix it! GAWD! I wanted to cry sooooo bad! I was SOOOOOO frustrated! DDDDX
Then, the fucking pump was fixed TOO WELL and I went into a LOW during JapaneseReligions! AGH!
COULD MY DAY GET ANY WORSE???
Answer: YES!
We went to Math class and I got a 3/10 on my last quiz. Meanwhile, the b/f gets a PERFECT FUCKING SCORE!
My god, I'm proud of him, but SHIT! Why couldn't he HELP me study? What was I doing wrong?!
Oh, that's right. HE has a graphing calculator that does ALL the work for him! Meanwhile, I'm stuck with this piece of shit one because my sister stole MINE last year and LOST THE THING!
Then, I bring this up with the b/f and he says, "That's the problem! You haven't confronted her about it!"
AGAIN! I almost slapped him!
Yeah! Thanks for the encouragement, Mr. Med Student who can obviously excel at any and all things!!!
AUGH! I know he has to be smart and all with what he wants to do, but C'MON!
Then, we had another quiz, like every Tuesday, which I'm POSITIVE I've also failed... FUCK!!! FUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCKKKKK!!!!! GOD FUCKING DAMMIT! I HATE MYSELF! I HATE HOW I CAN'T DO A FUCKING THING ANYMORE!!! The teachers are either out to get me, or I'm just incompetent and STUPID! On top of THAT, I can't keep my health under control because YOU, FUCKING DIABETES!!!!!!! *shakes fist*
So, after that, we were leaving and THAT'S when my boyfriend decides to start being more comforting and encouraging.
Of course, by then, I was near tears, feeling rather cheated out of a nice day. So, I kept my head down, trying to hold 'em back. I don't like it when people see me cry, y'know?
Then, we parted.
I really wanted to cry on the way home, but I couldn't because I was driving. Then, I GET home and my dad's here, so I haven't had a chance to cry yet... I really wanna get all this pent-up frustration out... guess I'll just have to draw it out... *le sigh*
Yay, depressing art... TT^TT
Alright, screw this... I'm gonna go study what I missed in Japanese today and finish my homework... *sigh*
I don't feel the need to apologize, to be honest.
These are my true feelings and words.
This is MY place to write, not just YOUR place to read. You had the option and you chose to read (if you got this far, anyway). So...
Meh, I'll be back sometime, I suppose...
~Yosei~
