Good Grief.

[WARNING: RANT AHEAD]

I don't know why I do it.

Seriously.

Why do I always go to the parties?
If I don't go, I feel like I SHOULD be there, like if I don't go, I'll be left out. But, every time I DO go, I leave feeling... regretful.

I love my boyfriend, I really do. But, it's just weird to be around him when we're alone as compared to when we're around others. When we're alone, he's super-sweet and kind, and rather quiet. But, as soon as our friends get around him, he kinda turns boisterous and seems to show-off a lot... y'know?
He's good at a lot of things, and he's pretty smart. But, he seems to really put that out there, he KNOWS he's good and smart. But, I think he kinda boasts himself without realizing that he's doing it.

The thing that's really been bothering me lately is, well... he's not exactly secretive with our "sex-life"... I don't know why he does it. He just kinda tells all our closest friends the kinds of things we do. And, I really don't like that.
I mean, I get that he is PROUD of having me for himself, and that's great and all, but he doesn't have to boast about it! He gives details that I don't think are something that should be out there!
To me, sex is a sacred pact that happens between two people that love one another. To the two of us, it IS the marriage, y'know? Screw Christian weddings and stuff like that. You love someone? BONE 'EM! But, only if you love each other and are sure you're going to spend most of your lives together, yeah?
But, I see it as something sacred, it's something that should be just between the two of us!
When he goes around blabbing about it to our friends, it's suddenly not between us anymore, is it? And, he does it when I'm right there in the room, like he's bragging, or something! This happens and everyone looks at me, like, "Wow, really? You do THAT?" And I dunno what they think of me anymore! I try to have a nice image in front of people in public for the most part. When it's me and my close friends, though, sure I'll get lax and sometimes be a tease, or a pervert, but... Ahh! What must they think of me?!

What do you guys think?
Would you tell your closest friends about what you and your partner do/did/would do in the bedroom?
I guess it depends on the friends you have... I can trust my friends with the information, but it's not like they LIKE to hear about it, don't you think? I know I wouldn't... <_<;

*Sigh* Well, enough of that.
I'm gonna get to bed, I suppose.

~Yosei~

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