Hey, guys. It's been a while, hasn't it? *isn't sure because, he never checks his blog*
Got together with Angelo (Fai no Tenshi) the last couple of days to watch anime. We've seen DVDS one through three of Haruhi Suzumiya. It was great and I loved it.
Now, we're gonna move on to Buso Renkin here soon.
I don't know what it is, but lately, I felt like I'm missing something, you know? Like, a piece of yourself was left behind somewhere. Or like you asked someone to do a favor for you and they turned you down because they didn't think you were worth enough effort... must be the depression coming back... this year is gonna suck if this keeps happening.
I feel like I don't care about anything anymore. Like I'm numb to the world... I want to draw, but I can't find the insentive to do it. I want to call my girlfriend, but I don't see the point in walking from the living room to my bedroom to get the cellphone. I want to drive to town at a normal speed, but I end up blanking out and when I get there, I don't remember driving there. It's eerie, ya know? All these weird things... mmm... I wonder if there's a quirk in my brain or something.
I feel like crying, but then I get dry and end up staring out the window, mind completely blank and not sure where I am or what I'm doing... it's just weird.
The other day, I went to light a candle, but I blanked out. Then, I heard Angelo asking me what the hell was wrong with me and noticed I'd been running my finger through the flame. That worried him, I think.
He's called a couple of times today.
We don't work 'til tomorrow afternoon, I could go see him. Better than being home alone, I guess... It's dull here, I need something exciting to happen.
I'm in a rut.
I hate those.
*sigh* Well, I'm gonna go find a way to entertain myself now.
I'll do my best to figure out what's wrong and cheer up a little, guys. Okay? Thanks for reading.
See you all around! n_n
+~*Yosei*~+
