drew's amazing.
andmybestfriend.
what kind of girl would be so obsessed with you me at six and all time low?
that'd be me. i'm that girl. jessica's the name, and lying is the game. but lying's not always the game, i didn't lie about my obsession right there. i am obsessed with atl and youmeatsix. i can name all of all time low's song just by hearing it, and i know most of the songs from you me at six.
oh my. here i am trying to "wow" you with some decent first impression and already you think of me as some lying band obsessed teenager. well, you must know there is more to me then that.
like my swagger. and my legit-ness. it's pretty ghetto crazy.
if you're anybody who knows anything, then you'll know i have a mild case of heffaphobia? halfaphobia? i don't know. but i do know i have an irrational fear of being touched. well, i wouldn't say it's irrational. i'd like to think it's rational. as rational as can be. either way, do not, under any circumstances enter my little bubble. i freak the fuck out. ask anybody who's anybody.
that's not always the case. if i'm comfortable enough with you or i'm just comfortable that day, i won't mind. with some i'm comfortable around them all the time, with others it's an on and off thing.
another thing about me; i'm always smiling. well, at least eighty percent of the time. if i smiled one hundred percent of the time, my jaw would need some serious work.
now, i'm not saying that i'm a saint or anything, because i can assure you i am most definitely not even remotely close to being a saint. i've been called a bitch far too many times, i've already lost track. i've lied so many times in my life, i couldn't tell you what was the truth if it was standing right in front of me. i've been grounded because of my anger issues and my attitude. i swear far too much for a girl my age, and sometimes my parents are ashamed of me.
but i'm alright with that.
now if you really know me, you'd know i'm also kind of philophobic. i don't know how this has happened, i think it's because of the whole touching thing, i'm so afraid of people getting close to me physically, that my mind has convinced my body that i'm afraid of people getting close emotionally.
that's pretty logical, right?
of course it is. at least, that's what i tell myself.
sure i've had infatuations, but never have i been infatuated enough for a relationship. besides, i'm stressed out enough. i don't need a boyfriend stressing me out too. plus there's the fact that i haven't found the right guy.
no, not "mr. right" because i'm well aware that he won't be coming around like, ever. i'm talking a guy who could handle me and my moodiness. or the fact that i might put myself before anybody else sometimes. that i might be a demanding, nagging, bitch, but he'll stay long enough to see through that and actually like me because he knows my perks.
yeah. that's gonna happen.
oh, yeah. i'm currently in middle school, and basking in my free health care. which is highly appreciated with all the sprains i've gotten. which leads me to the subject of basketball.
basketball is the whole reason why i have this darn sprained ankle. the same ankle i sprained two times before. once in february again, from basketball, and another time about maybe three years ago from soccer. but basketball is def my favourite sport there is. but that doesn't mean i dislike all the other sports, i'm up for something different.
i like sports. don't hate.
my mind's always in the gutter. and i am not just saying that, because it is exactly as it is. the truth. not it's not exactly eighty year old pedophile dirty, just the whole, oh, yeah, i'm gonna laugh because i can take that sexually. which is pretty much most of the time.
i'm conceited, but i don't consider myself pretty. i haven't met one girl yet who is so self-centered they go around telling people how beautiful they are. i've only ever heard all of my girl friends saying they're 'hideous'. which is far from the truth. so, i'm gonna be one of those annoying girls and tell you i am full on hideous. even if you may think it's a lie, i refuse to depart from denial.
i like denial. it's like a secure, little blanket. you know, one that's so soft and warm you can't help but wrap yourself up with it. and it's pure ecstasy because it's yours and no one else's. and with that blanket you don't have to face the truth. you can convince yourself of anything and everything. it's tainted bliss. your tainted bliss.
but in this case, it's mine.
i'm opinionated and almost always brutally honest, if you ask for my opinion i won't hesitate telling you the truth. if i don't like something, i'll straight up tell you i don't like something. but twenty-five percent of the time i hold it in. not for my sake, of course. i just don't wanna be a bitch all the time. it's a life choice.
i may not say what i really think of you, but i will think it. oh, i will. if you're reading this now, thinking what a terrible human being i must be, think about this. even if you haven't exactly told people off or bitched and moaned about someone behind their back, you're judging me right now. and you hardly even know me.
everybody judges on first impressions. sometimes even appearance alone. i do it, i'm not gonna lie about that. so you can't sit there thinking i'm a complete liar, also everybody's lied. even if it's a small, white lie. a lie is a lie, no matter how much you like to think that it's not.
me. i happen to be a compulsive liar. and i've been one for years, it wasn't until this year that i've admit it.
you've heard about my many flaws. and just like my flaws i have many perks. maybe you'll get to see them one day, maybe you won't. only time will tell.
now continue wondering how i sleep at night.
Sincerely, the most legit bitch there is :]
Start it off with, are you available?
Yea.
Do you live in the northern or southern hemisphere?
Northern I believe.
This is called North America for a reason.
You're stuck in an elevator with your worst enemy, what do you do?
We'd play strip poker.
Just without the poker part.
;)
You're trapped in a room for 3 days with the person you fell the hardest for, what would you do?
I'D GIVE HIM A LAP DANCE!
If you woke up in one of the Saw movies, do you think you could survive?
HA!
No.
I probably wouldn't even last a minute.
Will this weekend be a good one?
Maybe.
If someone liked you, would you want them to tell you?
It'd be nice.
But they should only do that if they're completely ready.
Do you have a friend that is a complete and total flirt around everyone?
Lmfao.
Justyn, no doubt.
Have you ever thrown a shoe at someone?
Lmao
Yea.
What's the most important part of a relationship in your opinion?
Humor
Trust
Communication
You know,
the works.
If you could be with anyone right now, who would it be?
A lot of people.
Do you believe that if you want something bad enough you'll get it?
Nope.
Have you thought about an ex today?
No.
Oh great,
now I am.
Thanks.
How important is a sense of humor in a significant other?
It's really important.
If you don't have a sense of humor, I might just drop you like that.
Well, maybe I won't.
But I can assure you,
I'll be annoyed.
Do you think you will be married in 10 years?
Maybe.
What's your home screen image on your phone?
I think it's Megan
Whats song lyrics to the song your listening to?
If I flew into a mountain
Burn myself to nothing
That would be something
Would it be enough?
A pistol to my temple
Pull the trigger like its nothing
That would be something, but it’s never enough
This is all an illusion
What do you take me for?
It makes no difference what I do for you
I would give you my life but it just won’t ever be enough
I hurt someone that loved you
Except that I felt nothing
That would be something, would it be enough?
I had everything you wanted
It shows to give you nothing
That would be something
This is all too much
This is all an illusion
What do you take me for?
It makes no difference what I do for you
I would give you my life but it just won’t ever be enough
It makes no difference what I do for you
I would give you my life but it just won’t ever be enough
I’m burning alive
With a pistol to my temple
If we don’t believe this reason for living
Then we’ll never know do I want to know?
If we don’t believe this reason for living
Then we’ll never know do I want to know?
If we just give up give into the pressure we’re losing it all
We’re losing control
It makes no difference what I do for you
I would give you my life but it just won’t ever be enough
It makes no difference what I do for you
I would give you my life but it just won’t ever be enough
(I'll give it all up for you)
Last December, what was your love life like?
I was single.
And I loved it.
And I still love it.
Have you ever been around someone who was high?
Unfortunately.
Do you have a best friend?
I have too many.
Will tomorrow be a good day?
Hopefully
Are you listening to music?
Now.
Do you sleep with your door open or closed?
Depends on how I'm feeling.
Think you will be in a relationship three months from now?
Maybe.
Let's see what happens.
Are you sober?
Well, is I wasn't I'd be having hot crazy sex right now.
Do you currently have a hickey?
Yea!
Wanna see?!
Do you have any brothers?
Yea.
Just one, though.
When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?
I dunno.
Last month maybe?
Would you ever get a tattoo?
Yup.
Can you honestly say you're okay right now?
I could say 'm okay.
But it'd probably be a lie.
Who was the last person you took a photo with?
Megan
How did you get your last bruise?
My brother accidentally hit me.
Last person you talked to on the phone?
Drew
The last person you hugged, did you have feelings for them?
No.
Is there anyone who doesn't like you?
Yup.
And I'm 100% okay with that.
Are you mad at someone right now?
No, well maybe.
I forget.
Are you okay with the life you live?
You could say that.
Where were you 2 hours ago?
getting out of bed.
Are you wearing socks right now?
Nope.
Could you date someone who used poor grammar?
I could try.
But I'd correct them way too much for my liking.
Do you like hugs?
Pshh no!
I LOVE hugs!
Do you like where you live?
Yea.
Could be better, but yea.
Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
Hm, maybe.
I've been getting mixed signals from my friend.
What should you be doing?
Putting on sun screen.
What's your favorite color?
Lime green
How often do you curl or straighten your hair?
I blow dry whenever I wash it, after that I leave it.
But I straighten or curl occasionally.
Are your parents in love?
HA!
Not even close.
Do you have any scars?
A lot on both legs (Street ball really messes you up, REBECCA!)
Wrists. It was a phase.
My neck.
My back.
My left rib cage.
And on my right hip.
Your best friend commits suicide, what do you do?
Well, firstly I'd be pissed off, because they promised they'd never do that.
Then I'd be crying my eyes out for weeks upon weeks.
And I might try it.
What color are your bed sheets?
Pink, white, blue, purple.
Lost anything lately?
Weeeeeeell,
yes, actually.
Too much to count.
Which do you prefer - eyes or lips?
Eyes.
Brady's is the prettiest blue I've ever seen on a guy.
Medicine, fine arts, or law?
Medicine.
I wanna be a pediatrician.
Is your password about a boy?
Not even close.
Are you one of those people who obsesses over Hollister?
ROFLMFAO
ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!
I'm Anti-Hollister
Miss someone?
Of course
When someone says "we need to talk", what runs through your mind?
I'm thinking
'I CALL BREAKING UP WITH YOU FIRST!'
What color are your eyes?
A really dark brown, but they sorta look red in different lighting.
Are you tan?
Naturally
This is all an illusion,
What do you take me for?
It makes no difference what I do for you,
I would give you my life but it just won't ever be enough.
Time: 11:53AM
Mood: Content to a degree
Music: A Pistol To My Temple - Scary Kids Scaring Kids on my iPod
I'm watching Shrek The Third, and HAPPY CANADA DAY!
We studied Canada Day in social studies, I think.
I didn't pay much attention in that class. That was almost my lowest mark. But I got 100% on my ELA exam, so that's pretty amazing.
For me anyways.
I'm going to the beach with Drew and them pretty soon, and then I'm gonna see the fireworks with Drew and my family.
I should write for my story.
Should being the key word.
I'm slacking in the writing department. And the sun is making my hair lighter.
Kinda sucks.
And spits.
I'm off to lather myself in sun screen.
Or maybe, I'll let that guy across the street do it for me ;)
Wink, wink, nudge, nudge.
Sun Screen &&Vaseline!
xo.xo
Jess <3<3
A pistol to my temple,
Pull the trigger like it's nothing,
That would be something,
But it's never enough
Time: 5:17PM
Mood: I don't know
Music: A Pistol To My Temple - Scary Kids Scaring Kids on my iPod
Have you ever kissed someone?
Yea
What about French kiss?
Definitely ;)
I'm only kidding.
Have you ever had oral sex?
That's between me and the person who got it. ;)
Still jaykaying with you.
Have you ever had sex?
Nope
Have you ever skinny dipped?
Not that I know of.
Have you ever seen a porno movie, magazine or website?
I walked in on my brother once.
Scary, scary shit.
Have you ever drank alcohol?
Lmfao.
Becca remember the beer?
I am never doing that again.
Have you ever gotten drunk?
Seems like it.
Have you ever cheated on a test in school?
Yes.
Have you ever cut a class at school?
Yea
Have you ever gotten in a fist fight?
No
Have you ever smoked cigarettes?
No, it smells disgusting
Have you ever smoked pot?
No but my brother promised he'd never do it again.
Have you ever shoplifted?
I was four.
Do you steal from work?
I don't have a job.
Have you ever been suspended?
Almost
Have you ever been arrested?
No.
Have you ever taken money from a collection plate?
No
Have you ever stolen someones boyfriend or girlfriend?
Not that I remember
Have you ever cheated on a partner?
No
Have you trespassed?
Yea.
Have you ever movie jumped?
I don't know what that means,
so possibly.
Have you ever made someone bleed?
Yes.
Have you ever tried to kill someone?
No.
I don't try.
I succeed.
Jaykay.
Have you ever screamed out the wrong persons name during sex?
Well, if I had, that'd be bad.
But I haven't
because I'm a virgin.
Have you ever lied to a loved one?
Yes.
Too much.
Have you ever gotten alcohol poisoning?
Not that I know of.
Have you ever given someone a dutch oven?
A what?
I should search that up.
GOD NO!
Have you stayed on a date after midnight?
I don't date.
Have you had a one night stand?
No.
But I have pulled at all nighter
with the guy who used to be my best friend
across the street.
He was practically my brother.
Have you ever told someone else's secret that you swore not to tell?
Yes.
Unfortunately.
It slipped out.
Have you ever walked in on people having sex?
Hell no.
Ever walk in on your parents or sibling having sex?
Gross, no!
My parents having sex is just...
Like a person eating their own crap.
Disturbing.
Do you curse often?
I'm Miss Swears-Too-Much
Have you ever yelled at your principal in school?
No.
Have you ever told someone, outside your family, you loved them seriously?
Not a one.
Have you ever toilet papered someone's house?
Lmfao,
yes.
Have you fantasized about sex?
Wouldn't you like to know. ;)
(No.)
Have you ever gotten a tattoo or piercing?
Two on each ear,
but I wanna get a lip piercing and a tattoo.
Have you ever spied on a neighbor?
Nope.
Have you ever written on school property?
Yup.
Have you ever used a hair coloring product?
Lmao.
Yes.
With Jayna.
I might never be able to wear that shirt again.
Have you made up and spread evil rumors about someone?
Not that I can remember.
But if you have about me,
well then,
probably.
And don't tell me, I'm afraid of waking up alone
But it's waking up to find you've gone
Now you make it clear,
I had my chances
Only one way left to go,
So I'll follow it down
Time: 2:48PM
Mood: Meh.
Music: The Deep End - Scary Kids Scaring Kids on iTunes
ONE question.
ONE chance.
ONE honest answer
That's all you get.
Respond even if you're not tagged
You get to ask me ONE question.
Write it to my inbox or comment on this post.
Any question &&I have to promise to answer them truthfully.
No catch.
But I dare you to re-post this and see what people ask you...
Bet you won't do it.
I tag anybody who reads this.
'Cause I've seen her before
Punkbitch
And I don't care anymore
Punkbitch
Time: 1:25PM
Mood: Groggy
Music: Punkbitch - 3OH!3 on iTunes
When was the last time you told someone how much you liked them?
Last night, I told my daddy I loved him very much.
When is the next time you'll see your closest friend?
Whenever
Last time you talked to your number one?
I dunno what you mean by that.
Are you happy?
Yea.
Who can you blame for your bad mood today?
Nobody.
I'm not in a bad mood.
Did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl?
Nope.
How many dogs do you have?
None.
Do you have any clothes belonging to your ex?
Nope.
Are you stubborn?
Usually.
Unless I'm really tired.
Then I'll say, do and let you do anything.
Oh, scratch that.
What were you doing at 1 am this morning?
Talking to somebody.
Listening to anything?
Now I'm listening to Dance With Me - 3OH!3
Are you dating the very last person you kissed?
Nope.
Do you sleep on your stomach?
Rarely.
Who was the last person you rode in a car with?
Mommy.
She was picking me up from Drew &&Megan's.
Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
Yes.
Man that was awkward.
Who was the first person you talked to today?
My brother.
What were you doing at midnight last night?
Talking to somebody.
How late did you stay up last night and why?
Around 3AM I'm not sure.
I just remembering watching some horror movie
then my cat coming in
then nothing.
Do you find it hard to trust others?
Yes
Do you care too much, not at all, or not enough?
Probably not enough.
How fast does your mood change?
Quickly.
I think you're thinking of someone now.
Then you're thinking wrong.
How often do you tell people you're ok when you're really not?
Often
Is it hard for you to get over someone?
No
Were you happy when you woke up today?
Not really.
I'm always cranky in the morning.
Er-- afternoon.
Do you miss the way things used to be?
Yes
Where is your phone?
Up in my room somewhere.
Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
Lmfao yes.
Where did you get your shirt?
My brother's closet.
Is your hair your natural color?
No.
It's supposed to be black.
I blame the sun.
Could you go the rest of your life without smoking pot?
Hopefully.
Are you happy with your life right now?
Usually.
Do you think you're a good person?
Maybe.
Could you last in a relationship for over a year?
No.
Well, I guess it all depends.
But I usually can't.
I guess if I really liked this person.
Did you like anyone last summer?
Yea.
It was mutual feelings.
Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?
How would I know?
Has a girl ever called you babe/baby?
Rofl, yes.
It was funny.
Has a boy ever called you beautiful?
Yea.
Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Depends.
Do you miss anyone?
Yea.
Bourke went to Europe.
What is something you need to go shopping for?
Hm,
I honestly don't know.
I guess new t-shirts.
Do you believe in true love?
It could happen but that doesn't mean I believe in it.
Is there someone that you can't get out of your head right now?
Nope.
When was the last time you really laughed?
Yesterday.
I was playing "in your pants" with John!
Do you want to see somebody right now?
Yea.
I haven't talked to them in like forever!
Is there anybody you're really disappointed in right now?
Not that I know of.
Would you change yourself for the person you love?
No.
If the really cared, they wouldn't care.
What time did you wake up this morning?
1:13PM.
Have you ever laughed at something that wasn't meant to be funny?
Yea.
What color was the last towel you used?
I don't look at colours, if it's dry, I'll use it.
Is there someone of the opposite sex that means a lot to you?
Yea, there are a lot of people of the opposite sex that mean a lot to me.
What never fails to make you cry?
My family.
Are you talkative?
Definitely.
Do you know anyone with such a terribly annoying voice that you can't even stand it?
Yes.
Next vacation you're going on?
I'm going to Calgary.
Does it bother you when someone lies to you?
Yea. A lot, actually.
What shirt are you wearing?
A Burton shirt I stole from my brother's closet.
What's your favorite drink?
I dunno,
I like a lot.
What was the first thing you thought of this morning?
What time is-- Oh.
Who is your last text from?
Brenden.
Are you easily scared by horror movies?
Yes. Lmfao. I just remembered the fan, Becca.
Have you ever cried during a movie?
Yes.
What's your favorite thing to eat?
Edible food?
What is to your right?
A stapler, nail file, lamp, pen, paper, magnifying glass, paper shredder, garbage thing, battery, wire phone, and some kind of thingy-ma-jig.
What size ring do you wear?
I don't normally wear rings.
How do you feel about girls who smoke?
Any smoker disgusts me,
if they smoke around me that is.
Last night, did you go to sleep smiling?
Yes.
I finished texting Brenden.
That kid is hilarious!
Do you stay up later than ten o'clock on a week night?
Yea.
Is there anyone you want to come see you?
Yea.
Tell me what's on your mind:
Shut up Chris.
Have you ever kissed anyone who's name started with a J, D or B:
Yea.
Who is your number one person on your top friends:
I dunno.
What are you doing tomorrow?
Going out with friends.
IT'S CANADA DAY, BITCHES!
Are most of your friends older or younger than you are?
Older.
Who owns the last 2 cars you rode in?
My mom and Drew &&Megan's mom.
Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
Yea.
Could you survive without electricity?
No.
Not even for an hour.
Could you go a month without talking to your best friend?
I would kill myself.
Would you ever get a tattoo?
Yea.
When's the last time you cried?
I dunno.
Last week, maybe?
