I read something my friend wrote just now and I feel like such a bitch.
I am the WORST friend ever. I can't believe I did that to her.
When I was done reading it, I re-read it again and again, just to know I have proof of how much a bitch I really am.
I know you can't be perfect, but what I did and what I am doing is just hitting below the belt. Especially for me.
I really want to apologize to her, but I know it won't make anything better. But it's so hard for me. I can't give anything away about her, because I know she'll find out who she is and just say it's okay.
But it's NOT OKAY!
And she'll say I'm not a bitch.
But I AM!
I don't get how I could do this to her. Especially since it's HER.
Once I finished reading it, and re-reading it, I felt like I'd been beaten and I became really dizzy, light-headed, and it felt like my whole world had been turned upside down.
I know.
That line is really over-used but it really explains how I felt.
Everything was crooked, upside down, or just plain ol' disconfigured.
I truly feel so bad, and it's really bad that it happened about two days ago, and I just found about now.
I feel so shallow, and so...fake, I guess.
Anyways, I should get going, Erin's gonna be here soon.
Bye.
