Even though I already knew this was happening, but the world around me is changing and I'm not sure if I like these changes. All my best friends from earlier in life are drifting further away which then leaves me alone, but then there are the good parts in which there is opportunity for me to make new friends and stuff.
Along with that I am studying really well to actually fulfill my dreams for once, which I've never bothered to do before. I'm not sure what to make of the changing world, since it is both good and bad.
There is a part of me that likes this since I've always wanted to actually perform to my full potential since I have slacked off my whole life, being disappointed in myself in many ways and stuff.
I want to make my family proud of me for once, even if they are proud of the things I have done, managing to get to uni and stuff, but I don't really feel it in any way.
Bit of a depressing lecture from me, but aah well. I needed to let some of it out since my counseling doesn't start until the 12th Feb or something. And there is also nobody to talk to since I don't feel the connection to my once best friend anymore, she seems to have changed into a completely different person.
Ranty ranty rant, aah well. I shall progress on with life and become the person I've always wanted to be. Ciao.
