I just had THE worst argument of my life.

I've retreated to my room and taken hostage all of the pizza in the house because I honestly plan to hole myself up in here for the rest of the day. It's sad. ._.

Long story short, I have a lot of little issues with my mother but I always feel like I don't have the right to criticize her for them because she's had to deal with all kinds of shit that I will never have to deal with my whole life. Basically: her problems >>>>>>>>>>> my problems

But I argued with her over something very small (because I'm selfish and belligerent and I can't help but argue when I'm bothered by something), but then the small issue blew up into a very big one once my mom started yelling at me about her childhood and how lucky I am in comparison and how I take it all for granted, etc etc

Which is all technically true. But at the same time, I KNOW I'm not a particularly horrible daughter and that the things I complain about are the things that a lot of other people my age complain about. (Which is essentially that I don't like being told what to do anymore.)

But I also know that my mother is much more fragile than most other mothers and that the burden on my shoulders is heavier because of it. (and I accepted this burden willingly when I told my mom that I wished to hear about her childhood.) So I know I have to be more careful than most, but it's hard.

I don't know. It's all so complicated. I guess for now, I'll just eat my pizza and watch youtube videos and hope my best friend calls me back so that I can wail to him over the phone. *sigh*

Gamers no longer want games w/ storytelling focus?

Was on a GameFAQs messageboard when I came across this post:

One of the main reasons, especially nowadays [why many Americans prefer WRPGs to JRPGs], is that gamers want a game that's a game first of all. They don't want hours of dialogue or story, with most thinking "If I want that, then I'll watch a movie or read a book." Some are going to hate me for this, but this is a reason that Call of Duty is so popular. It's a game that you can immediately begin playing, having simple controls that are fun and interaction with others.

If this is true, then it's disheartening for the gamer in me. I've never been the biggest fan of WRPGs, though I was never able to articulate why until now. With a lot of WRPGs in general, I get this feeling that the story is often just a vehicle to get the characters from point A to point B to point C. Like, there isn't really a focus on developing the characters or establishing really interesting and complex relationships between the characters. It's like the scenario writers think, "We need to drive the story forward somehow, so we'll give the characters simple, linear motives and maybe there'll be a twist or two at the end and that'll be that." Of course, I'm sure not every single WRPG is like this, but I feel like a lot of them are.

I still like a lot of JRPGs though, and it makes me really sad that the genre seems to be going out of fashion. And it's especially sad that some really big companies that are known for their JRPGs are still trying to create interesting characters, relationships, etc., but haven't been doing it very well as of late. (i.e. Square Enix) *sigh*

I guess this is why I watch anime a lot more than I play video games. >_>

trigger warning (racism)

This is disgusting. I just don't understand how, in this day and age, people still make such extreme generalizations about an entire race of people. Like, these people seriously believe that every single Arab and Muslim in the world is out to get Americans. Do they not realize that the extreme hostility they have towards Arabs is just as misguided and dangerous as the extreme hostility the Al Qaeda have towards Americans?

I saw Zero Dark Thirty and walked away from the film w/ a very different mindset from these people. This one Tumblr user wrote a really enlightening reply to this image:

I saw Zero Dark Thirty and it was in no way a hateful propaganda film. It was definitely controversial, but it was controversial because it was depicting the behavior of our government and military, which was controversial. To blame this kind of racism on the film itself is just as bad as saying that video games are the reason for violence in america... If you want to blame someone other than the guilty culprits for racism like this, I think it would be far more productive to look at some of today’s media and political figures than at a movie than was clearly misinterpreted by some incredibly ignorant individuals. It’s time we stopped blaming art for America’s problems. Art mimics life.

Django Unchained

is a really good movie. Everyone go see it. :)


The 2nd arc of Jojo is AMAZING

"I knew he was crazy, but this is OFF THE HOOK!"

Everything about Battle Tendency is wonderful.

I will admit, I wasn't completely won over by the first arc. I still can't really put my finger on it, but there was something about it that just didn't quite appeal to me in the way the current arc does.

Though I think a lot of why I'm liking Battle Tendency so much has to do with Joseph being totally badass. Hell, even Erina is badass now!

Also, Sugita's GLORIOUS voice acting. <3