I took Stacey to the airport in Tokyo on Wednesday. She's gone now. Back to Hawaii. We took one last picture together on the train. It was exactly 2 years since the day we met.
"a slow strangle with your feet on the floor"
You know that saying "just delaying the inevitable"? It's not difficult to understand or anything, but........sometimes you have to let yourself do it I guess. I went to Akihabara and bought anime stuff. It was fun. Then I went and moshed to NIN live in the rain. It was more fun.
"we'll waltz like an army, for the fear of our pain"
We never actually said goodbye. She dragged me along when she had to give her speech at the office party. We didn't really stick together at either of the ALT goodbye parties. Our little 6 person reunion was anything but farewell-like. I spent the night at her place on Tuesday and helped with last minute cleaning and packing. She made me a picture album. I drew us as Nana and Hachi. A family friend showed up at the airport and wouldn't leave till after she'd boarded the plane. We've still been emailing each other every day.
People keep asking me how I'm doing, but I don't really have an answer.
"leave me alone, I'm in pain but I won't let you bandaid my wound. I am not at a stage where I can't seem to handle myself."
