Writing introductions is a bit tedious so....just take a look at my first post if you want to know more....
....and if you get curious about the name of this World or my posts, check out the second one.
- Created By Sailor Nevar
Memories in the Rain 2, op.3: Affected by the Night
It's not raining now, but it should be soon. We're supposed to have a tropical storm called Krovanh starting sometime later tonight. I don't like the rain. I always say I don't, but......well, maybe it's just one of those "the grass is always greener" things........I like storms anyway. When it rains and rains for days and you can't get to work without getting wet, then I think I hate it. But right now, I wish it would hurry up and rain.
"...let the rain of what I feel right now come down..."
My first year in Japan we had a pretty bad typhoon. Not sure where on my mental ranking of Florida hurricanes it really fit, but they closed the schools and sent us home in the middle of the day. I went home and stood on my balcony and watched the sideways rain and was really happy. Of course the teachers all thought I had lost it when I told them the next day.
"...the rain always brings our heroes, believe in heroes..."
In the past week I started watching 3 new anime series. Figured I might as well since I couldn't sleep too well. So far "Bakemonogatari" is my favorite. It's got a similar animation style to "Samurai Champloo", but the jokes and storytelling devices remind me of "FLCL" a lot. I can't decide which of the other two I like better yet. "Canaan" is really cool, but it's got a "Wolf's Rain" like sense of dread about it. I just know it's the kind of show in which important characters are going to die. "07 Ghost" I just started watching on a whim b/c there's a ridiculous amount of merchandise for it in Animate recently. It's kind of "Escaflowne" style fantasy I'd say.
I talked to my mom for a while last night. I always try not to call her since it costs money, but it seems I always wait too long and then spend a lot in the end anyway. It always reminds me of where some of my weird habits came from. Like always writing lists in spiral noteboks. Or always being in the process of redecorating my room. Or just always doing something, always needing to do something. Something I thought of, or something I like, or just something to keep me busy. She said my step-dad's the same way so it works out well. Nobody's bored, and nobody's lonely, and nobody's needy, or a burden. Everybody's busy doing what they want before time runs out.
"...I'm still waiting for, you to be the one I'm waiting for..."
Let's Eat the World's End
Recently I've been feeling like my apartment is shaking. We had a really big earthquake a couple weeks ago, maybe you saw it on the news.......It happened at 5am so of course I promptly woke up and screamed like a Hollow was chasing me. Then I took a deep breath and screamed some more. And then I reached for the glass of water by my bed since it was kind of feeling like I had swallowed a razorblade after all that, and realized the water was no longer in the glass, but all over the table. Which meant that a lot of other things were probably all over the floor. And the noises which my sleep-stupidized mind took to be the plates of the earth grinding against each other had probably been my bookshelves shaking themselves away from the walls.
Yep.
Broken glass eeeeeeverywhere. And, even worse, broken Evangelion models. So much work putting those damn things together the first time....I didn't take any pictures, but there was also an interesting combination of vinegar & olive oil on my kitchen floor. I called up my dad in Florida to tell him, "hey this happened, don't freak out." and in the most un-dad-like moment of possibly his entire life he said to me, "well, just throw some lettuce down there Katy & you'll have a salad."
WTF?
So anyway, recently every time I lie down at night it feels like things are shaking. They might be for all I know. We did have quite a few aftershocks the same day & in the ones that followed. But now it's like I can't tell the difference between real shaking, drunk-induced shaking, imaginary-paranoid shaking, and 6th-floor-inevitable shaking. In fact, none of these things may be happening at all........
...I'm sick of shaking, never waking from the hell I achieve...
Welcome to Purgatory
It's hot here.
Also, some kind of hot-key has activated itself on my laptop making typing a whole new kind of psychedelic experience. As such, this post will only last as long as I can go without freaking out and causing permanent and regrettable damage.
A lot of things happened this summer vacation. Of course, it's not over for another 2 weeks, but I'm kinda out of money for the time being. I haven't edited them yet, but I did take some pictures so hold on a bit longer!
I went to Odaiba to see the "life-size" original Gundam in all its 30th anniversary glory. I also went to summer Comiket with some girls I know and we saw a lot of really good cosplayers. They convinced me I should get back into it so it looks like this winter I'll be going as Lenalee!
Since I used up most of my summer holidaey on going to Tokyo a few times I've gotta sit around the office till school starts up again with the new kids. They suck. But I've got two iPods and a sketchbook so I'm getting a lot of work done.
It seems I'm acting more otaku recently. I've been watching an anime called K-On! It's pretty stupid. And moe. I hate moe. But there's only 13 episodes so I guess I'll finish it. I've been obsessing over Evangelion 2.0 again. I wonder if it's still in the theater....
...finally found shots of Asuka's test plugsuit and Mari's pink one....
"give me strength to be kind, to combine, all the good things in life that are so hard to find cause I have and I won't let them go like I do with my friends."
Long Way to Say Goodbye
I took Stacey to the airport in Tokyo on Wednesday. She's gone now. Back to Hawaii. We took one last picture together on the train. It was exactly 2 years since the day we met.
"a slow strangle with your feet on the floor"
You know that saying "just delaying the inevitable"? It's not difficult to understand or anything, but........sometimes you have to let yourself do it I guess. I went to Akihabara and bought anime stuff. It was fun. Then I went and moshed to NIN live in the rain. It was more fun.
"we'll waltz like an army, for the fear of our pain"
We never actually said goodbye. She dragged me along when she had to give her speech at the office party. We didn't really stick together at either of the ALT goodbye parties. Our little 6 person reunion was anything but farewell-like. I spent the night at her place on Tuesday and helped with last minute cleaning and packing. She made me a picture album. I drew us as Nana and Hachi. A family friend showed up at the airport and wouldn't leave till after she'd boarded the plane. We've still been emailing each other every day.
People keep asking me how I'm doing, but I don't really have an answer.
"leave me alone, I'm in pain but I won't let you bandaid my wound. I am not at a stage where I can't seem to handle myself."
Lesson 2-3: Inner Circle Breakdown
I didn't even have to look that title up on the handy "Wiki list of Bleach chapters". I'm reminded every time I go get a title of my friend once saying, "You don't Google anime. You Google porn. You Wiki anime." But anyway, I didn't have to look it up. I've had it in my head (along with a few others) for quite a while. Because I knew I would need it one day. Because, really, when the outer edges crumble, what's left to protect the inside? Nothing. And it can't last if it's left unprotected, if those inside it aren't vigilant.
"I said my confidence, it gets stronger when you're next to me"
Of course, it's not the title that relates to this picture. This chapter comes much later, but it was part of what made me fall in love with Bleach all over again once I got to Japan. This title page was made into a poster which I immediately bought after having saved the scanlated version, emailed it to my phone, & ripped the original out of JUMP. It says good things. Amusingly, at the time I thought Rukia was Mizuiro-kun, making it a picture of 1 girl and 3 boys. It fit ok that way. Then later, I realized how that was kind of stupid because of course, she's a main character so why wouldn't she be on it? So it was actually 2 boys and 2 girls. And it fits better that way.
Last Halloween Sarah & I wanted to cosplay as Orihime and Rukia. That still might be kinda cool to do if we have the money. I noticed the "save Orihime" arc is taking a lot longer than the "save Rukia" one did. To be fair, Rukia's imprisonment was just set up. It was in order to reveal the true villain who coaxed Orihime away. And of course she went. To protect them. Silently. As it's the only thing she thinks she can do. They fight and they fight and still she doubts. Doubts their feelings, doubts their motives, doubts their strength, doubts her own worth more than anything else. And I keep waiting for her to get up and fight. And she doesn't. She just stands there silently, indecisively, watching everyone else suffer. And it makes me hate her. Much as I want to like her and be able to defend her to those fans who call her a useless bitch, I can't.
I took a test on the 7 deadly sins the other day. One of those lame, "which one are you?" things. I thought for sure I'd be Wrath, or maybe Pride, but no. I got Sloth. Fucking Sloth?!? Yeah. But I can't even begin to count the number of things, people, experiences, that I've let go by out of "laziness". So maybe it's accurate after all. Because I'm Orihime. Some of the time.
Good thing Kubo Tite isn't writing my life for me and I can do what she can't.
"please take the message that I'm picking up my chin at last"
