Writing introductions is a bit tedious so....just take a look at my first post if you want to know more....

....and if you get curious about the name of this World or my posts, check out the second one.

Regeneration

"Hating interactions with people isn't the same as hating people."

Being liked by people is unpleasant. Or rather, it's uncomfortable for me. This week was nothing but stress because of that kind of thing.

My heat rash came back this week. It's not hot outside at all. I'm starting to worry about that a little bit.....mostly I'm just frustrated by the fact that I'm distracted from drawing by the itchiness. I'm also a bit annoyed by other people always asking me why my arms are bandaged up. I don't like them worrying, and I don't like explaining.

Tsubasa ended this week. It was kind of ambiguous. I can't say I didn't like it b/c I'm too loyal to CLAMP to do that, but.........knowing what I know now about the way serialized manga works I wonder if it was really the ending/timing they wanted. They're famous enough that they should be able to control that kind of thing by now, but........

Anyway, I got a new drawing pen. It's pretty fucking awesome. No more switching between 19 different varieties of increasingly thinner felt-tipped pens. It's the real thing. It's like when you upgrade your weapons in Final Fantasy. The difference is obvious the minute it's in your hand. Of course I've still got to work with it for a while, but I'm already figuring out how to do things I've always wanted to with it. I can't say it's easy or anything, but, well, it's just like how that cool new sword makes you feel like a better fighter when you really haven't changed at all. The confidence it gives you makes you want to keep training and training and training......

....think I'm gonna need to buy some more ink soon......

Memories in the Rain 2, op.3: Affected by the Night

It's not raining now, but it should be soon. We're supposed to have a tropical storm called Krovanh starting sometime later tonight. I don't like the rain. I always say I don't, but......well, maybe it's just one of those "the grass is always greener" things........I like storms anyway. When it rains and rains for days and you can't get to work without getting wet, then I think I hate it. But right now, I wish it would hurry up and rain.

"...let the rain of what I feel right now come down..."

My first year in Japan we had a pretty bad typhoon. Not sure where on my mental ranking of Florida hurricanes it really fit, but they closed the schools and sent us home in the middle of the day. I went home and stood on my balcony and watched the sideways rain and was really happy. Of course the teachers all thought I had lost it when I told them the next day.

"...the rain always brings our heroes, believe in heroes..."

In the past week I started watching 3 new anime series. Figured I might as well since I couldn't sleep too well. So far "Bakemonogatari" is my favorite. It's got a similar animation style to "Samurai Champloo", but the jokes and storytelling devices remind me of "FLCL" a lot. I can't decide which of the other two I like better yet. "Canaan" is really cool, but it's got a "Wolf's Rain" like sense of dread about it. I just know it's the kind of show in which important characters are going to die. "07 Ghost" I just started watching on a whim b/c there's a ridiculous amount of merchandise for it in Animate recently. It's kind of "Escaflowne" style fantasy I'd say.

I talked to my mom for a while last night. I always try not to call her since it costs money, but it seems I always wait too long and then spend a lot in the end anyway. It always reminds me of where some of my weird habits came from. Like always writing lists in spiral noteboks. Or always being in the process of redecorating my room. Or just always doing something, always needing to do something. Something I thought of, or something I like, or just something to keep me busy. She said my step-dad's the same way so it works out well. Nobody's bored, and nobody's lonely, and nobody's needy, or a burden. Everybody's busy doing what they want before time runs out.

"...I'm still waiting for, you to be the one I'm waiting for..."