Writing introductions is a bit tedious so....just take a look at my first post if you want to know more....
....and if you get curious about the name of this World or my posts, check out the second one.
- Created By Sailor Nevar
Blazing Souls
Sometimes I think about making a post......but then I just don't. I think it's b/c I feel like I only have one thing to say. Like, seriously, one sentence.
So, recently I've been thinking about being creative. Sure, I can draw. Lots of people can draw. So what? It doesn't mean they want to create things. I've always wanted to. It's one of those things that I somehow forgot is different about me. I forgot that most "regular" people don't sit around thinking about how they can make something, or what they're going to make next, or even that they might like to make something.
I like people who can create things. I forgot that too. Or rather I transformed that into "people I like are creative like me" by accident. Not all of them are. Not all of them are dissatisfied with just living. It's strange to me.
For the past 6 months or so my "twin" and I have been working on a DVD to be used in the elementary schools in our city. We had some help from the other people we work with, but it was all from my ideas & he did all of the computer editing. We finished and sent it out on Monday. We were super proud of ourselves. At the same time we decided to send out a quick survey. In order to see what else we could do to help people now that this project was finished.
I'm not going to do what I did back in 2005 again (my dear, dear myOtaku blog of that time is now long gone
) but, let's just say life's a bitch sometimes. Long story short, neither of us is going to be interested in helping people for a LOOOOONG time after today.
"...three cheers for tyranny, unapologetic apathy..."
You knew it all along, right?
Right?
Yeah.
I did.
When did you go back to living for someone else's sake?
You promised you wouldn't.
Yeah.
I know.
You broke your promise.
Yeah.
I know.
What a waste.
"...The world you live in is a world in which only those who can find their own way ahead are allowed to survive..."
Let's Eat the World's End
Recently I've been feeling like my apartment is shaking. We had a really big earthquake a couple weeks ago, maybe you saw it on the news.......It happened at 5am so of course I promptly woke up and screamed like a Hollow was chasing me. Then I took a deep breath and screamed some more. And then I reached for the glass of water by my bed since it was kind of feeling like I had swallowed a razorblade after all that, and realized the water was no longer in the glass, but all over the table. Which meant that a lot of other things were probably all over the floor. And the noises which my sleep-stupidized mind took to be the plates of the earth grinding against each other had probably been my bookshelves shaking themselves away from the walls.
Yep.
Broken glass eeeeeeverywhere. And, even worse, broken Evangelion models. So much work putting those damn things together the first time....I didn't take any pictures, but there was also an interesting combination of vinegar & olive oil on my kitchen floor. I called up my dad in Florida to tell him, "hey this happened, don't freak out." and in the most un-dad-like moment of possibly his entire life he said to me, "well, just throw some lettuce down there Katy & you'll have a salad."
WTF?
So anyway, recently every time I lie down at night it feels like things are shaking. They might be for all I know. We did have quite a few aftershocks the same day & in the ones that followed. But now it's like I can't tell the difference between real shaking, drunk-induced shaking, imaginary-paranoid shaking, and 6th-floor-inevitable shaking. In fact, none of these things may be happening at all........
...I'm sick of shaking, never waking from the hell I achieve...
Welcome to Purgatory
It's hot here.
Also, some kind of hot-key has activated itself on my laptop making typing a whole new kind of psychedelic experience. As such, this post will only last as long as I can go without freaking out and causing permanent and regrettable damage.
A lot of things happened this summer vacation. Of course, it's not over for another 2 weeks, but I'm kinda out of money for the time being. I haven't edited them yet, but I did take some pictures so hold on a bit longer!
I went to Odaiba to see the "life-size" original Gundam in all its 30th anniversary glory. I also went to summer Comiket with some girls I know and we saw a lot of really good cosplayers. They convinced me I should get back into it so it looks like this winter I'll be going as Lenalee!
Since I used up most of my summer holidaey on going to Tokyo a few times I've gotta sit around the office till school starts up again with the new kids. They suck. But I've got two iPods and a sketchbook so I'm getting a lot of work done.
It seems I'm acting more otaku recently. I've been watching an anime called K-On! It's pretty stupid. And moe. I hate moe. But there's only 13 episodes so I guess I'll finish it. I've been obsessing over Evangelion 2.0 again. I wonder if it's still in the theater....
...finally found shots of Asuka's test plugsuit and Mari's pink one....
"give me strength to be kind, to combine, all the good things in life that are so hard to find cause I have and I won't let them go like I do with my friends."
Princess and Dragon
WARNING:spoilers!!!!!
Today I saw this movie in the theater. And guess what? IT WAS FUCKING AMAZING!!!!!!
Haaaa......as if we didn't expect that, right? I've been waiting for this movie since the first one was out two years ago. Sure, the first one was cool, it even made me like Shinji & Rei a bit more than I did in the original TV show. But this time.......
....that's right, my favorite character. ASUKA!!!!! Ah.......she was awesome. A little different from the original series, but I still liked her. I talked to my friend at the model shop afterward & he said, "What do you think about her character changing? It seems like she's becoming more like a good kid." And I said, "Yeah, but I still like her." And he said, "Because you're the same?" (he knows all about it) & I said, "Yep, so I understand that probably, Asuka wanted to be good all along." She said some really great things just before her last scene in the movie about thinking it was better to live alone & be strong alone & how she'd started to think that maybe being with other people was fun. And then she got in Unit 03 (yes, Asuka, not Toji) to test it and just before the craziness took over she said, "I'm smiling......huh.....smiling......." And in the preview for the 3rd movie she had an eyepatch! I sooo want to cosplay her even more now. Oh, and she had a different plugsuit for test piloting & it was waaay cute!
And then there was this girl. Mari. I was mad about her being in the movie before I saw it b/c, fundamentally, this is supposed to be Asuka's movie. However, she totally won me over. I loved her Unit 05 even if it was only around a short time, & the other plugsuit (pink!) that she wore when she "borrowed" Unit 02 was cool too. It kinda reminded me of Anemone's from Eureka 7. I liked her b/c her personality was similar to Asuka's but she seemed a little more adult. Also, she did some crazy cool thing that I don't think anyone watching understood, but it involved glowing circles on her hands & chest (on her plugsuit) and made glowing cylinders come out of Unit 02's back so it could become more powerful for a short time. Her eyes glowed & her teeth got all pointy looking like an animal too!
I'm not entirely sure, but I think Mari is supposed to be American. Most of the scenes involving her & not the other main characters were all in English w/Japanese subtitles which was cool for me. Apparently the subtitles were too fast though b/c I was talking to this lady who sat near me (& cried through almost the entire movie!) afterwards & she said she was jealous that I could understand those parts. Kaworu wasn't in the movie as much as I would have liked, but I know they're just teasing people with him right now anyway. It was enough to work on me, that's for sure! He did come down in his Eva at the very end (from the moon!) and attack.....or something? It looks like there's a lot of him in the next movie, and Mari & Asuka too. Of course, it's evident that Shinji & Rei are really meant to be the main characters now, but I like what they're doing with both of them this time around so maybe it's ok. We'll see.
You can (not) advance.
Fall Into My Inferno
I went a little crazy this weekend. There was a certain set of new Evangelion gashapon that I had to get. I mean, I had to get ALL of them. It wasn't easy. $30 or so later I'm looking at the pile of duplicates and thinking maybe........it wasn't worth it.........but on the other hand, I'm also thinking, I only got 7. There's one more Asuka in a white Santa suit and it's pretty cute......
I totally offended some of Stacey's new friends today. Why are girls so helpless? If she had been able to just say goodbye to them on her own rather than making me come pick her up from the coffee shop, at least 5 minutes out of the way, it never would have happened. I'm happy she's going to LTJ w/me, and it was nice to go buy train tickets together even though we're not taking the same train to the airport next Friday, but couldn't she have just met me at the station? That girl's boyfriend totally thought I was saying Japanese kids were dirty. And then when we tried to explain to him that all little kids are dirty, especially in the winter when they catch colds, he went on a rant about how I was misusing the Japanese word for dirty. Seriously, who cares? I think he just wanted to be able to say he was right b/c he was a guy. I'm getting to really hate Japanese men. It's too bad, some of them are pretty nice looking, but they're chauvanist pigs the lot of them. It's a bit scary though b/c it's extending into my feelings about men in general. And I used to be the one who hung out with only guys........
I'm pretty sure that Pin's mad at me. He'll get over it by tomorrow, but it's too bad. I said what I think, I forgot to protect him again. The leader always seems not to need it, but that's not true & I should know it by now. I hope my assumption was wrong & I'm not really a "rental keitai". Even though I'm guilty of it too, it's just sad when someone who's around is used as a replacement for someone who's not.
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