This is something...I felt...and needed to let loose.....I was...not nor will I be...in a good mood for a while....a real good while....i don't know...myself.

To fall in the dark...

No...the darkness...
Of my own heart....

To know all that has happened.
Worse...
To have more pile up on you...
To have more things light up that anger.
The pain.
The depression.

what causes this?
I don't know...
Tears?
Anger?
Regret?

I do not know.
The care...is fading, again.
That darkness...coming back....

No...I won't...but, it has a hold on me.
In every direction....

What now?
Let...myself...fall.
I guess I just need to let it win...one time.
Just this once.

But...I always need saving from someone...who can hold together when I can't.