Just a picture I like and feel suit me.

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So me right now.

Ok, well thats all for now.

So, confused!@.@

Well, as everyone should have already read bout me moving in with sum other ppl, that ship is now sinking quickly.

Let's see now. Well, first off we have moved out of the run down house. That is kinda good, but Milo and Nikki are now gone. Milo left and then Nikki left. So now there isn't anyone left except me and Joe. Gah!!!!>.< I hate it. I don't really like him very much. So, now Im like what to do? Heres some things cuz ppl I need help. Here is the summary facts:

1. Im living with a guy I do not like very much. He smokes at least 5-7 packs a day.(So not good for his health or mine. Second hand smoke and all.)

2. I have no job and all, yet I want out from beneathe him.

3. My old guy friend wants me back to staying in his watchful eye and I do want to be around him.

4. My parents don't like my old guy friend and are skeptical of Joe.

5. I can not return to my mother for fear of her not letting me come to the library or get online other than skool work again.

6. We have no money for food or anything. I am almost dehydrated.

7. We have no furniture in our new place.

8. My old guy friend has a place for me to stay with food and everything.

9. I am sick of my parents trying to control my life.

10. The guy Im with never lets me go where I want alone. He gets pissy if I wanna be alone. He yells at me if my family says anything to him bout me. I never get a moments peace from either side.

11. I wanna be free to do as I want and talk to who I want to talk to. I wanna be left alone.

So, I dunno what I should do. I wanna be with my old guy friend who my family doesn't like and all. I do not want to be with the guy I am with, but I do not want to return to my mother's house. So, I am so confused and jumbled up. I am so sick. I am constantly crying and crap. I feel so confined both ways and yet I feel like I am being torn in many directions.External Image

Well, thats all. Someone please help me! SOS MAJOR!!!!!!

~*~*~*~ Meira ~*~*~*~

A new beginning!

Ok, well, so far I have been staying in a new home with five other ppl. I just moved in with them two days ago. Lets see now there is Milo(boy), Joe(boy), Carlos(boy), Dee(girl), and Nikki(girl). THen theres me. I share a room with Joe, Milo, and Nikki. So far, I am staying free, but I must find a job soon and we are also looking for a new house because this one is not suitable with an unworking kitchen sink, caved in roof in the back bedroom, one bathroom for six ppl, and a very small room for four ppl to stay in. I have to share a bed with Joe. I got rather cold my first night there. Currently I am sharing clothes with another girl until I can get back to my mum's house to get my other things. So, far things are pretty messed up, but we do have pretty good fun. We play cards and watch tv late at night and such. We try to keep things in the house pretty warm cuz it is getting mighty cold at night and in the early morning. I get kinda cramped and bitchy at night mostly cuz I don't have my meds for my intenstinal issue and I get real icky bout that since I don't like spending most of my time in the restroom.

I am having fun and I do like doing things with these ppl like walks and going to the park. I don't really like all the smoking and crud, but Im dealing. Plus there is much lack in food witch sucks. I am starving right now with no money and not very much food which my stomache isn't liking despite how farely used to not eating breakfast and lunch it is, but me eating dinner is risky since these jokers fry every thing and eat the most unhealthiest of food.

Well, thats it. I wanna go back to talking to ppl in the chatroom, so seeya peeps laters!

~*~*~*~ Miera ~*~*~*~

I posted a picture that fits me! The one in my background I shall try to post, but I gotta get it out of the bmp format and into jpg.