Holy-
CRAP.
Life can sweep you off of your feet.
I've been away for a godawful long time, and for this and to all of my wonderful friends - I'm sorry. I can't even begin to apologize for vanishing for such an extended period of time.
But my apology can only mean so much, if I don't offer an explanation. So I'll be completely honest and open about it.
Right around the the time I vanished I was dealing with one of the biggest issues that I still struggle with now - depression and anxiety. I was living in a residence that I didn't like, big RL issues were weighing down on me, and for a long time, I felt as though there was so much in life that I was not accomplishing. I didn't want to wake up and do anything, I didn't even want to put effort into designing art and webpages. And honestly, I can't drawn anything since I vanished. My favorite hobby is almost abandoned, I can hardly believe it.
Since then however, I've moved to a fantastic house (honestly, when I first arrived in my new home, I started crying because it was such a stark difference from where I used to live, which was absolutely trashy and not up to my basic standards at all!). Several doctors visits have finally addressed by depression and anxiety and I have recently been taking medication & have been trying to be more outgoing with friends.
Life still has its difficulties, and I would be lying if I said that everything is kosher. But I sat down in front of my computer after taking my medication for the day, and I started thinking about everything I've been leaving behind and neglecting and I realized something-
some of the happiest times in my life were spent on TheOtaku and other websites where I've made so many amazing friends, and I would have to be foolish to continue life without coming back.
I'm so sorry for taking off like I did, but many times, when depression hits, even doing the things you used to love can make you feel worse. Because of it, I stopped visiting here, Minitokyo (I tried coming back, but the anxiety and RL issues choked me every time I logged in), and other sites (even YouTube, until recently. I refused to log in even!)
I'll be spending a lot of more time here, re-learning everything about this site (because I'm a stickler like that) and sharing some of the new things that have happened in my life. As for Minitokyo, I'll be working on reintergrating myself there as well. One step at a time though.
Once again, I'm sorry that I've been away for such a long time, and I hope that my friends can uderstand and forgive me.
I'm glad to see all of you again, & I hope you've all been okay these years!
I've compiled a list of my favorite words, and now, I realize how creepy I am. Like I didn't know before. *rolls eyes*
Notice how the words, 'rainbow' and 'butterflies' aren't there at all? Obviously, my vocabulary is dark and angsty, save for the word 'beatific'.
And my least favorite word:
Why?
Because if you've read as much crappy fanfiction as I have, where the phrase 'glistening orbs' is violated on a near constant basis, you'd hate the word too.
And while I'm at it, here's a list of sayings I use both on the net and at home:
"Dude!"
"Seriously."
"That's so gay, and not in the good way either."
"I'd tap that."
At the end of a statement; "...like it's going out of style."
"That's so pimpin'."
In reply to something fairly obvious; "Ya think?"
"Ah... Joker." *dreamy sigh*
I must be the creepiest/not work-safe person to keep around. ;~;
