And I feel it insulting to shove things I can deal with off on other people, causing them to worry, when nothing ever comes of it.
This is true, however it is good to know about it, if only to help us understand you a little better. I actually worry more if someone never seems to have any problems. It makes me wonder if they simply keep them all to themselves. In your case, I'm just glad to hear that it doesn't happen to you very often. ^_^
Vagrant AI (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 07/24/09 | Reply
And I feel it insulting to shove things I can deal with off on other people, causing them to worry, when nothing ever comes of it.
That's how I feel too, so although I've had the urge to post about certain things, I figure they're my problems to deal with and I shouldn't bring others down when I can handle it myself.
But... yeah. *pats* That cannot be a fun thing to experience there. o_O I hope you don't have these too often now.
Cure Neko (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 07/24/09 | Reply
When I was younger, I had many moments like that. It took years for me to get it under proper control. Like you, I am the one in control of my mind and body. The years spent getting there were hard and painful to remember, but they produced in me my abilities as a soldier.
Glad you're back in control. Hope your coming days are much calmer and full of good food.
NNM
Food, fun, friends, and sun. A cat's dream for you.
I usually tend to be very offensive against myself, not violent though. Unless, I'm really pissed. Whenever I get really mad I tend to walk away from people and be alone. I know how mean and heartless I can be when I'm like that so I just walk away and go to my room or if I'm not at home to somewhere else I can be alone and calm myself down. Of course, most people take the walk away thing very bad and end up really mad at me but hey its better than listening to me scream and say things I don't really wanna say, I think.
I'm sure most people will be surprise to know this since I'm usually very calm and nice around here, heh. But yeah I also have a dark side. Everyone has, I guess.
I also have those nights where my mind won't shut down, its always racing, a thousands thoughts race through my mind in mere seconds. Its horrible, I can never sleep so I have no choice than to take a mild sleeping pill to calm me down which in consequence makes me very drowsy and depressed, heh.
Also:
And I feel it insulting to shove things I can deal with off on other people, causing them to worry, when nothing ever comes of it.
For those who knows me well, they would be nodding their heads while reading this saying "YEP! That's you alright!"
I never ever used to tell people how I felt before, only started to do when I found this place and just recently with my own family for the same reason as yours. But you know what, sometimes talking about it helps even if we know how to deal with it or nothing comes of it. Just talking how you feel makes you feel more relaxed because someone else knows it. And if, god forbids, one day you just cannot control yourself they know whats wrong and how to help you through it. That is why family is there for you, you know?
Dr. Mama Cat. (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 07/24/09 | Reply
*pats you on the back*
I get something very similar, only it's in dream format, so it's like I'm really there. And I can't seem to stop myself from screaming and ranting at people, even though I know I have no right to do so.
I'm just glad that I don't have the dreams very often. They're very draining. I don't like being angry in real life because it's too easy to lose control. So I refuse to do it.
Like you said, it's more simple than it seems, taking ownership of your own thoughts, feelings and actions. :)
Mindys Person (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 07/24/09 | Reply
i'm the same. but whenever i notice it's getting out of hand, i seclude myself in my room, and snuggle with my cat. she is like the other half of my soul, and it calms me.
Sabrina
Otaku Archangel | Posted 07/25/09 | Reply
And I feel it insulting to shove things I can deal with off on other people, causing them to worry, when nothing ever comes of it.
This is true, however it is good to know about it, if only to help us understand you a little better. I actually worry more if someone never seems to have any problems. It makes me wonder if they simply keep them all to themselves. In your case, I'm just glad to hear that it doesn't happen to you very often. ^_^
-Sabrina
Miss Anonymous
Vagrant AI (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 07/24/09 | Reply
And I feel it insulting to shove things I can deal with off on other people, causing them to worry, when nothing ever comes of it.
That's how I feel too, so although I've had the urge to post about certain things, I figure they're my problems to deal with and I shouldn't bring others down when I can handle it myself.
But... yeah. *pats* That cannot be a fun thing to experience there. o_O I hope you don't have these too often now.
Neko Nana Mode
Cure Neko (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 07/24/09 | Reply
When I was younger, I had many moments like that. It took years for me to get it under proper control. Like you, I am the one in control of my mind and body. The years spent getting there were hard and painful to remember, but they produced in me my abilities as a soldier.
Glad you're back in control. Hope your coming days are much calmer and full of good food.
NNM
Food, fun, friends, and sun. A cat's dream for you.
ShadowLight
Otaku Eternal | Posted 07/24/09 | Reply
I usually tend to be very offensive against myself, not violent though. Unless, I'm really pissed. Whenever I get really mad I tend to walk away from people and be alone. I know how mean and heartless I can be when I'm like that so I just walk away and go to my room or if I'm not at home to somewhere else I can be alone and calm myself down. Of course, most people take the walk away thing very bad and end up really mad at me but hey its better than listening to me scream and say things I don't really wanna say, I think.
I'm sure most people will be surprise to know this since I'm usually very calm and nice around here, heh. But yeah I also have a dark side. Everyone has, I guess.
I also have those nights where my mind won't shut down, its always racing, a thousands thoughts race through my mind in mere seconds. Its horrible, I can never sleep so I have no choice than to take a mild sleeping pill to calm me down which in consequence makes me very drowsy and depressed, heh.
Also:
And I feel it insulting to shove things I can deal with off on other people, causing them to worry, when nothing ever comes of it.
For those who knows me well, they would be nodding their heads while reading this saying "YEP! That's you alright!"
I never ever used to tell people how I felt before, only started to do when I found this place and just recently with my own family for the same reason as yours. But you know what, sometimes talking about it helps even if we know how to deal with it or nothing comes of it. Just talking how you feel makes you feel more relaxed because someone else knows it. And if, god forbids, one day you just cannot control yourself they know whats wrong and how to help you through it. That is why family is there for you, you know?
*hugs*
The crazy bubbly shadow
Indi
Dr. Mama Cat. (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 07/24/09 | Reply
*pats you on the back*
I get something very similar, only it's in dream format, so it's like I'm really there. And I can't seem to stop myself from screaming and ranting at people, even though I know I have no right to do so.
I'm just glad that I don't have the dreams very often. They're very draining. I don't like being angry in real life because it's too easy to lose control. So I refuse to do it.
Like you said, it's more simple than it seems, taking ownership of your own thoughts, feelings and actions. :)
~Crystia
MintIceCream
Mindys Person (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 07/24/09 | Reply
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