I created a collage for my ideal self. Its covered with my motivations and inspirations, including the overarching color that spoke to me for the Acatl year, terra-cotta. To grow, I need to unlearn the things holding me back. My biggest challenges are anxiety, decolonizing, sugary drinks, and meat consumption. Fruit, vegetables, and water need to be a bigger part of my diet.

I'm establishing symbolic new beginnings with myself, and I started by deleting my old DeviantArt account. I made the account in high school, but I hadn't logged in since 2014. I was a little sad to let it go, but it was something I wanted to do for a year now. I'm minimizing my past online presence; hell, I wanna eliminate my current online presence.

Still no luck yet with Hinge. I don't really know why I keep trying to test the boundaries of my asexuality. Sometimes it feels like I can't grow as an adult unless I find a partner. I keep thinking that because I have several squishes on fictional characters, that deep down I'm potentially open to a romantic relationship. Once again I think I might just settle for that ficto life.