awww, i'm sorry, i hate when theO is mean and deletes stuff. it happens to me all the time. sorry i'm not talking to you much, but you understand. thanks for commenting and caring, you're one of the only encouragements i have in my life right now. and yeah, sorry if i freaked you out with that venting post, but yeah, i really needed to get that out. still not doing great, but hopefully this whole nightmare will be over soon... i'm looking for roommates to rent with, and a full-time job, so maybe i'll be saved soon. i pray so. i've had it with living at home. obviously. anyway, thanks for caring i love you more than christmas trees love ornaments!