Everyone can be selfish sometimes, but not everyone can recognize it. kudos to you for knowing your faults. sorry you got in a fight with your mom. i suppose i'd probably be feeling the same way as you if i was in your situation. i mean, it kinda sucks being hellishly bored, so why would you want to go? my grandma is dying too and mom makes me visit her all the time, and play cards with her and stuff, and i used to hate it, cuz it's so boring and grandma is so slow and has a real bad memory so it's just hard... well, i still hate visiting, but sometimes cool things happen, you know? like, my grandpa started telling me about when he was in the air force and his jobs, and how he became the editor of a magazine without a college degree, and that stuff is totally cool to me. and you're gonna be able to get a tattoo and that book you want, so sometimes good stuff happens, ne? *shrugs* so yeah, you situation might suck, but maybe it won't be as bad as you thought. *nods* okay, that was long winded and unnecessary, gomen, i love you more than gaara loves naruto! ^_^ hope things work out!