How do you present something which ought to be passed over in silence?
I think that describes a lot of what I used to feel about writing posts like these. I know some people who think they're weak, even, when they complain about their life in a "public" space like a blog. But I figure if writing about my problems, albeit in a vague way, is somehow helping me, then I should probably keep doing it.
Well, writing seems to externalize what we feel, and then we can see what we do feel. It makes for a good tool to gain insights into whatever we want to further study and understand about ourselves.
A many-dimensional person is far better than a one-dimensional person. I've had my moments in the past, and I'm sure that I'll still have my unexplainable moments in the future. (However, trying to present them is another thing, which always gives me troubles.) The act of presenting is difficult, isn't it? How do you present something which ought to be passed over in silence? However, I find that some of the more difficult things tend to be dissolved to some degree by presenting them openly. (I don't mean that you have to reveal everything to us; rather, you ought to, in a mystical sense, present them to yourself.)
I'm sorry that I can't say more than this, but I hope that whatever it is, it reveals itself to be something which can be handled.
Oh gee, Bells... I'm sure you're not lying to us when you say it isn't all that serious, your wording just makes it sound thousands of times worse. Still, you know how to get a hold of me. PM me, whatever. Here's my e-mail address too. I like e-mailing. :D
HUGS - I think everyone runs into those kinds of worries. Don't let it get to you too much, in any case. To quote the great moral philosopher Londo Mollari: "Whatever it is, it can't be that bad!"
It's an "I'm sometimes irresponsible and a burden to my family" problem
Yeah, those problems often make you feel really bad. But talk it over with your family. They're usually more understanding than you might think (at least in my experience...not that I'm EVER a burden to my family since I'm COMPLETELY PERFECT).
Yeah, they suck. But hey, so long you acknowledge it's something to work on, then it's all good.
You're talkin' to a guy who hasn't had steady paid work for almost a full year now, remember? So if YOU feel you feel disappointed in yourself, well . . . hehe, y'know . . .
So yeah, now I'm definitely sure you'll be alright. I'll even lay the promise into it and everything.
Gah, sorry if I made people worry unnecessarily or something. I think I made my problem seem more serious than it is. It's an "I'm sometimes irresponsible and a burden to my family" problem rather than an "I'm on ten meds and dropping acid on the side" problem.
The issue itself isn't all that serious... I just feel really disappointed in myself, I guess.
And thank you everyone. I'm going to try to dig myself out of this, as futile as it might be. ♥
Rest assured, you don't come across as being unstable or anything. If writing in whatever form helps you figure things out, ain't nothing wrong with that. ^^
Pickle of the Year (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 04/07/08 | Reply
@:
But ignoring things is how I got myself into this mess in the first place. ^^;;
I think my biggest issue right now is that the thing I was trying to ignore for so long was so small and trivial and ridiculously stupid that I'm honestly embarrassed to tell my parents about it, even though they're the ones who need to hear it the most. I should probably stop being such a wimp and just tell them about it, really. ._.;;
bellpickle
Pickle of the Year (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 04/08/08 | Reply
....... ._.
bellpickle
Pickle of the Year (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 04/08/08 | Reply
@:
Well... ._.
I dunno. I guess I could PM you about it if you really want to know that badly. I don't really want to write about it on here, though. ._.;;
bellpickle
Pickle of the Year (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 04/08/08 | Reply
@:
...It has nothing to do with sex if that's what you're thinking. xD
bellpickle
Pickle of the Year (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 04/08/08 | Reply
@Pleiades Rising:
How do you present something which ought to be passed over in silence?
I think that describes a lot of what I used to feel about writing posts like these. I know some people who think they're weak, even, when they complain about their life in a "public" space like a blog. But I figure if writing about my problems, albeit in a vague way, is somehow helping me, then I should probably keep doing it.
And thanks. ^^
bellpickle
Pickle of the Year (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 04/08/08 | Reply
@:
No. I just sort of screwed myself and my family over. .___.
But I'm feeling a lot better now than when I posted this. So ummm, yes. >_>;;
Pleiades Rising
Otaku Idol (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 04/08/08 | Reply
Well, writing seems to externalize what we feel, and then we can see what we do feel. It makes for a good tool to gain insights into whatever we want to further study and understand about ourselves.
A many-dimensional person is far better than a one-dimensional person. I've had my moments in the past, and I'm sure that I'll still have my unexplainable moments in the future. (However, trying to present them is another thing, which always gives me troubles.) The act of presenting is difficult, isn't it? How do you present something which ought to be passed over in silence? However, I find that some of the more difficult things tend to be dissolved to some degree by presenting them openly. (I don't mean that you have to reveal everything to us; rather, you ought to, in a mystical sense, present them to yourself.)
I'm sorry that I can't say more than this, but I hope that whatever it is, it reveals itself to be something which can be handled.
Kimmeh
The Beautiful German | Posted 04/07/08 | Reply
Oh gee, Bells... I'm sure you're not lying to us when you say it isn't all that serious, your wording just makes it sound thousands of times worse. Still, you know how to get a hold of me. PM me, whatever. Here's my e-mail address too. I like e-mailing. :D
ramblinkillmachine@yahoo.com
And if it makes you feel any better, I just found out tonight that my sister got married, and I wasn't invited to the wedding.
Ouch.
"This is Schweinsteiger fashion. ZIS IZ FASHUNN."
Fasteriskhead
Otakuite++ | Posted 04/07/08 | Reply
@bellpickle:
HUGS - I think everyone runs into those kinds of worries. Don't let it get to you too much, in any case. To quote the great moral philosopher Londo Mollari: "Whatever it is, it can't be that bad!"
Kastom
Otaku Princess | Posted 04/07/08 | Reply
@bellpickle:
It's an "I'm sometimes irresponsible and a burden to my family" problem
Yeah, those problems often make you feel really bad. But talk it over with your family. They're usually more understanding than you might think (at least in my experience...not that I'm EVER a burden to my family since I'm COMPLETELY PERFECT).
COMPLETELY.
I'd rather see in shades of gray.
SomeGuy
Canadian Liaison (Team) | Posted 04/07/08 | Reply
@bellpickle:
Ah, it's one of those ones . . .
Yeah, they suck. But hey, so long you acknowledge it's something to work on, then it's all good.
You're talkin' to a guy who hasn't had steady paid work for almost a full year now, remember? So if YOU feel you feel disappointed in yourself, well . . . hehe, y'know . . .
So yeah, now I'm definitely sure you'll be alright. I'll even lay the promise into it and everything.
bellpickle
Pickle of the Year (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 04/07/08 | Reply
@SomeGuy:
Gah, sorry if I made people worry unnecessarily or something. I think I made my problem seem more serious than it is. It's an "I'm sometimes irresponsible and a burden to my family" problem rather than an "I'm on ten meds and dropping acid on the side" problem.
The issue itself isn't all that serious... I just feel really disappointed in myself, I guess.
And thank you everyone. I'm going to try to dig myself out of this, as futile as it might be. ♥
Dagger IX1
Team | Posted 04/07/08 | Reply
Rest assured, you don't come across as being unstable or anything. If writing in whatever form helps you figure things out, ain't nothing wrong with that. ^^
SomeGuy
Canadian Liaison (Team) | Posted 04/07/08 | Reply
Curiously, before I read Kastom's thing I was also going to ask if you were pregnant. Huh . . .
Well, tell ya what - you know where to find us, if you need to tell us you can. If not, then you'll still know where to find us.
Either way, I'll still insist on telling you that everything'll be alright.
bellpickle
Pickle of the Year (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 04/07/08 | Reply
@:
Actually, Yunho seems like the more responsible dad of the two, so I might just lean more towards him. Sorry, tsubusa. :3
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......how did the discussion turn to this??? I'm supposed to be angsting, you guys. ._.;;
bellpickle
Pickle of the Year (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 04/07/08 | Reply
@Kastom:
........I love you, Kastom. ♥
And no to both. ^^;;;
Kastom
Otaku Princess | Posted 04/07/08 | Reply
...Are you pregnant? Is Yunho the father? Don't worry, you can tell me. I'm trustworthy!
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...
...
lol.
I'd rather see in shades of gray.
bellpickle
Pickle of the Year (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 04/07/08 | Reply
@Katana:
No, it's actually bigger than graduation. Sorry for being so cryptic, but I really don't want to go into specific details.
...I am intrigued by this present though. ^-^;;
Katana
Goggalor (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 04/07/08 | Reply
Hm. Is it a graduation thing oh snap I need to make sure your present is ready for ACen. o3o
[There went THAT train of thought...]
"In Kat's wor we trust."
bellpickle
Pickle of the Year (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 04/07/08 | Reply
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But ignoring things is how I got myself into this mess in the first place. ^^;;
I think my biggest issue right now is that the thing I was trying to ignore for so long was so small and trivial and ridiculously stupid that I'm honestly embarrassed to tell my parents about it, even though they're the ones who need to hear it the most. I should probably stop being such a wimp and just tell them about it, really. ._.;;
Umm. Thanks for the kind words, in any case. ^^;;