Thanks for reading my blog!*world*

I have another blog for an upcoming manga story(to lazy to start drawing)

BUT what ever.

That by the way is what i live by

Diffrent Views: Before and After

Mostly you think "Hey, I can get to know a person by reading their blog" Well okay maybe most people don't think that. But hey it's ture. In this case, Not only do you get to hear about my life, I get to bitch to you guys about how crappy it is So before I begin. 1) Sorry for not being on in forever it's been busy 2) This might get a little complicated so try to follow.

Let's start in May, May was a very complicated Month for me. One I have this guy who OBVIOUSLY liked me, but hey little doves don't float around his head each time I see him. Well they used to before I broke up with him and he kissed me and I just stood there like a complete idiot. Then blew it off my shoulder like nothing happened...WRONG. It's a bit complicated. After that I didn't see him for awhile...And hey If by chance your reading..you'll know who you are...GET A CLUE I'M OVER YOU NOW GET OVER ME. Well During the periods I didn't see him, My grandfather went in to the hospital...he's doing fine now but hey another batch of stress hung on my shoulders for safe keeping. I guess were in June now. June started out HORIBLE My dad flew out to California and my mom flew out to South Dakota my brothers left to staff a camp..Leaving me HOME ALONE WITH THREE YOUNGER SISTERS FOR THREE EFFING DAYS. Well that's okay I guess. But right now. I'm feeling confused and Lonely, I'm angry and tired and I cry myself to sleep at night. Times are tough and everyday i'm plastering a smile on my face just to keep everyone happy. well I think i'm done. Should I...idk lash out at people. Tell them how I feel, Find someone to reli on??? I'm so stressed out it's everything I can do just to make it through the day with out completly going nuts on people.

Well I'm done Bitching.. Thanks Ya'll

Special Note:

IT's amazing how each day I think of you.
But not in the way I used too.
Today it's diffrent
Today this Ends
I found out that Hey you not the one i'm searching for
Through daily trials you weren't there
Though I told you and told you I didn't care
about your feelings...cause mine weren't ture
So now All there's left to say.
Hey, Sorry I hurt you. Hope you life's well
now leave my sight and go to hell.

.....Jeezum.....

Wow, The last few weeks have been so tireing! Last week my friend and I found out my Friend's Crush had a facebook...Im the only one she knows with a facebook. So, She sent me on my way playing messanger for them. Ha, Ha, Ha, So anyway... I've been talking to him not just for the messanger but also because well.....I think i'm falling for him too (God help him if he reads this...lol at least he might not now it's me!) So anyway..My friend is okay with it...But I recently found out she had been cutting herself....again...YA she had been doing it once before but we tried to take care of it. Her mom is soooooo worried and she doesn't know what to do about. Well Two days ago i was ta her house and she had Etched the firs Letter of her crushes name on her ankle. I told her I knew and she made me swear not to tell her mom...HA HA HA LOOP HOLE I didn't tell her mom, I told my mom and my mom told her mom...lol...I also told her crush...I don't know why I did...just felt he needed to know. Well I just woke up after being up for all night...got maybe an hour of sleep...I keep typing to keep me awake. lol....but can't stay awake....*falls asleep*

My rant on Mrs. California

Okay, so i saw Mrs. California in the new AGAIN today. So ima gonna rant about her..Kay???

She absolutely did nothing wrong. She was aksed a question and she answered truthfully. and I agree with her Marriage should be kept between a man and woman. God made Adam and Eve people NOT Adam and Steve! So now for truthfully answering a question asked by the judges in the pagent or whatever, This whold mess starts about so Victoria Secret photos she took....OMG she topless that is so immodest....well this is what i have to say about that...IF YOU HATE IT DON'T READ SPORTS ILLISTARTED there is the same freaken crap in that magazine as the same TWO freaken picture she took...TWO out of the billion a year we see on t.v. on the web....ANd what about PORN PORN PORN PORN we have website,movies,clubs and She gets docked for TWO pictures....something just isn't right. She was over 18 she had a right to do whatver.

So Mrs. California in whom I can't remember her name...(lol). I am compleltely for you. and I too am getting diginity docked everyday for beleiving in things like no same sex marriages and antiabortion. But so be it. it will be the people like us that really pull through. SO DON'T COME CRYING TO ME WHEN ALL YE PEOPLE ARE WIPE OUT BECAUSE TO MANY PEOPLE HAD ABORTIONS or ruined the recreation cycle by useing it to often or being married to someone of thew same sex and can't help each other reproduce. God gace us a way to keep our species alive. If we missuse it. we are doomed.

Holy shiz today rock and sucked

Oh Kays lets see it started out okay, it was my moms birthday so we went and hung out in temple/waco. Not so bad. When we got home a lazyied about the house for a few hours then went to DAIRY QUEEN YAY....then i got home and my ex-boyfriend was there...yippee...! IT went okay we talked about what happened between us and now were friends YAY...then he blew it...right before he left he planted one on me RIGHT SMACK OF THE LIPS *cough* now im freking out about it!!!!!!! HELP MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE PLEAASSSSSSSSSEEEEEEEEEEE

CHALLANGE READ IMPORTANT

HI YALL i have a challenge! scince im not a premium user nad im to impatient to wait till im an otakiuite++ this is gonna have to work. I have a few descrpitions i would like yall to read and try to draw them accordingly if you want to participate. They are for my kingdom hearts fancomic. Winners will get their ideas in the comic along with special thanks yadda yadda yadda K?

here are the descriptions
“The Angelic fury”
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Head/facial: Rough cut shoulder length hair (left side braided right side straight both sides twist and form a Reno ponytail at top of neck). Eyes are covered by goggles (cloud style). Skin is taut around cheek bones, and has a cold, calm smile.

Clothes: wears a very dark blue shirt (has Nightwish written on it in Japanese), and black Jeans. Shoes are black and silver.

Weapon: Gunblade. Blade has a dizzying alternating Black and silver pattern (seems to almost move constantly) with the heartless sign on both sides of the tip of the blade. The handle is a grayish blue with a small Chocobo in the very center of the Handle.

I. Honax- The Dark Master; Quarterstaff and Sword.
Medium height with short cropped brown hair. He wears dark pants and shirt, and a black cloak over one shoulder, with the heartless symbol on it.

II. Xdornaj- The Dark Eternity; Keyblade
Tall with a long face and flaming red hair. He wears dark pants, a white shirt open at the chest, and an orange trench coat. He wields the Fenrir.

IV. Caxcereb- The Shadow's Light; Katana
Blonde, long, wavy hair, She wears a bikini top with jeans her wyes are green with a tint of red and her face always carrys a smirk or anger. she wields the element of water.

V. Yxarm- The Demonic Serenity; Ninjutsu, small knives
Tall and lithe, with medium length blond hair. She wears a purple jumpsuit.

VI. Shiaxai- The Disciple of Darkness; flame sword
Shortish, with brown shin and short cropped hair. He wears short cut pants(not shorts) and a shirt crossed with chains.

VII. Xreked- The Mad Warrior; Dark Magic Book
Tall, very tall, and broad. Long wild brown hair, halfway down his back. He wears a robe that is a bit too small, and stretches at the shoulders.

VIII. Xeikcrino- The Celestial Paladin; Thunder sword
Tall, with long Blue hair, slicked down in spikes. He wears armor that seems to glow, with spikes on the shoulder plates, and is surrounded by a light blue, sparkling mist.

Thank Yall please send this on to other members THANKS

Please do not steal my descriptions, The deadline is June 21 (my b-day) if you want to join just leave a comment. the first book of the comic will be up no later than july 10th