Mostly you think "Hey, I can get to know a person by reading their blog" Well okay maybe most people don't think that. But hey it's ture. In this case, Not only do you get to hear about my life, I get to bitch to you guys about how crappy it is So before I begin. 1) Sorry for not being on in forever it's been busy 2) This might get a little complicated so try to follow.

Let's start in May, May was a very complicated Month for me. One I have this guy who OBVIOUSLY liked me, but hey little doves don't float around his head each time I see him. Well they used to before I broke up with him and he kissed me and I just stood there like a complete idiot. Then blew it off my shoulder like nothing happened...WRONG. It's a bit complicated. After that I didn't see him for awhile...And hey If by chance your reading..you'll know who you are...GET A CLUE I'M OVER YOU NOW GET OVER ME. Well During the periods I didn't see him, My grandfather went in to the hospital...he's doing fine now but hey another batch of stress hung on my shoulders for safe keeping. I guess were in June now. June started out HORIBLE My dad flew out to California and my mom flew out to South Dakota my brothers left to staff a camp..Leaving me HOME ALONE WITH THREE YOUNGER SISTERS FOR THREE EFFING DAYS. Well that's okay I guess. But right now. I'm feeling confused and Lonely, I'm angry and tired and I cry myself to sleep at night. Times are tough and everyday i'm plastering a smile on my face just to keep everyone happy. well I think i'm done. Should I...idk lash out at people. Tell them how I feel, Find someone to reli on??? I'm so stressed out it's everything I can do just to make it through the day with out completly going nuts on people.

Well I'm done Bitching.. Thanks Ya'll

Special Note:

IT's amazing how each day I think of you.
But not in the way I used too.
Today it's diffrent
Today this Ends
I found out that Hey you not the one i'm searching for
Through daily trials you weren't there
Though I told you and told you I didn't care
about your feelings...cause mine weren't ture
So now All there's left to say.
Hey, Sorry I hurt you. Hope you life's well
now leave my sight and go to hell.