Until It's Gone. BP #79

Heyo,

*sneezes and tries to wipe burning nose*

You guessed it. I'm sick. Wonderful.
So how's it going? School's going okay for me, and you guys will start hearing my rants about winter in Canada soon. It snowed a few times, but melted, so...

Do you remember when I said in my last post that I never had any dreams about DD? Well guess what.
Last night, I did. But it wasn't romantic at all. It was more like he "hated" me and always pushed me around. Kinda like bullying, I suppose. And guess who else was in my dream? T.
My brain needs to calm down and let me digest one thing at a time. I vividly remember myself being confused in that dream. First I'm being "bullied" by DD, then T comes out of nowhere and I think we talked about stuff but for some reason, T had this disgusted face as if I smelled like old, sweaty socks. I have no idea what is going on anymore, I wish I could lucid dream so I can just sort out everything in my sleep and be able to know if the feelings I have right now are true. By feelings, I mean that I don't like DD at all, I might be subconsciously chasing after T's shadow, and am I changing as a person?

Enough about that, my biggest highlight today at school was when at some point, it was dead quiet in my English class and then I, loudly, blurted out, "cauliflower," to break the silence.

~Ri-chan

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