well this story is bout somethin tht happened to me not too long ago.....Well it all starts off bout a year ago. I had met a beautiful girl named Tashia she had got me into anime in no time. When she discovered i lived right down the road from her she kept inviting me over to her house almost every single day. I didnt mind at all i was always ignored till i met her. Anyway she has an evil girl named Jazz she has been Tashia's gf for years. But then bout half a year ago Tashia started calling me less and inviting me less. I thought nothin of it at first but then when she got word Jazz was moving ishe sounded so happy. But i could tell she wasnt happy at all her voice was starting to sound less cheerful and it almost sounded like she could cry at any moment. then 2 months ago Jazz didnt have any control over our local anime club and Tashia is usually the one to take charge and we listen to her. But now tht Jazz has moved in i KNOW tht Jazz is using Tashia to get control not only over the club but also to get everything she dosnt deserve. I keep trying to wake Tashia from this nightmare but she's too brainwashed by her gf to see how much i love her. I told the anime club and almost all agree with me they all encourage me to do my best. I give special thanx to xXHaseos GirlXx who has made 2 music videos for me and Tashia i thank her from the bottom of my heart. But unfortunatly Tashia is ignoring me either cuzz her gf told her not to or she's too damn scared to face the truth i tell. Truthfully i think Tashia would've broke up with her a long time ago cuzz i got my 1st kiss form her and she said she has a crush on me. But the only reason y Tashia's still with Jazz is cuzz Jazz fights drirty always threatening to kill herself if Tashia broke up with her she's also a drama queen and knows how to throw a fit to get Tashia's attention. I dont want Tashia the girl i love more than anything in the world to be used for the rest of her life so anyones got any ideas to help me plz tell me as soon as possible. Im crying juss typing this this plz help me. Some people say to find a new girl. But....when u find someone thts saved ur life many times tht she'll ever know u cant juss give up people who read this letter tell all the people u know to give me advice. I WONT GIVE UP TASHIA.....AND JAZZ ....I WILL NOT FAIL!!!!!!!

luckly

i finally got to see tashia!!! she looks as beautiful as always anyway she's in town today for trick or treating and she told me she was gonna be dating guys soon but as always i feel like i wrry too much but i wonder will she pick me if she does? man i cant even stand the thought of rejection made me almost shed a few tears thinkin bout it anyway i hope she dosnt

finally

i finally heard tashias voice on the phone today! it was like a heaven but also hell. tashia invited me over but i said i was sick because i fear jazz will be lying in wait for me to fall into a trap of hers it sounds like somethin she'd do and i didnt want to risk it but at last i heard tashias voice, my angels voice, the voice i treasure the voice of the one i love.

hole in my heart

hi everyone *sigh* its been 4 weeks since i heard or seen tashia im worried bout her its not like her to to this now i fear jazz has told her never to see me again as it says in the title its like there's a hole in my heart i tell my mom but she tells me to give up but the more i think bout it she always tells me to give up on things but i wont give up it feels like everything i love goes away no matter how hard i try but when tashia came it was then i felt love from her times when i'd cry in her arms and always smile at me i felt like she acctualy loved me till jazz moved in idk what to say now but someone help me.

missing her

*sigh* its me everyone ive been real depressed lately cuzz i havent heard or seen tashia in more than 2 weeks. i wonder if jazz told her to never see me again sounds like her tht damn brat. i still got 2 chocolate mint bars from last week to share with her still in my bookbag and it aint helping tht everyone is now juss bulling me flashing laser pointers in my eyes, wiping their hands on my stuff and poking me every where. Even one of my tutors hates tashia saying to other students "hey u know tashia? yeah she was somethin mean wasnt she? but u handled her like a pro" it pisses me off how dare he make fun of someone tht saved me!!!!i want to pound him to the ground so much during tht time!!but oh well i'll hold tashia soon i hope i miss her

juss flat out crying

well i was at tashias today i got so i got so close to her i kissed her face and neck but she wouldnt let me kiss her lips. idk y *sigh*i kept trying later on but she still rejected me.not to scare anyone but at tht moment...i wanted to feel a gun to my head and a loud bang.i want to love her but i was so scared bout her being with jazz i cried right there.*sigh* i juss want to love her.but idk wat to do but I WONT GIVE UP!!!!! IM GONNNA LOVE HER IF IT KILLS ME!!!!!