There must be another part to this dream that I can't let go of
But somehow it keeps getting interrupted.....
"Even with this vague helping hand,
In a split second the cocoon's threads are torn apart and turn to ash"
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Poems that lurk in the darkness of my mind will find their peace on this digital paper.....
~Aizome~
Take my breath again
with your trembling voice
under the stars' glimmer.....
Kiss me for the last time tonight
with your cold lips
and fly away with the stars.....
Let me cry in your arms,
as I will never have the power
to call for you ever again.....
~Do not fade in the memories,
my dream, as you will always be
a part of me.....~
Underneath this smile
.....sorrow.....
.....grief, disaster and chaos.....
daylight has just no effect,
is plain emptiness.....
and stings, this blank memory.....
my eyes hurt.....
just like that.....
nothing to hear,
images fly by
and get lost in the void
for eternity.....
Cannot focus my attention
as there is nothing to focus on
and the minutes die like hours
while my mind rots
in the silent noise
of solitude.....
It hurts wasting time
being alone, the soul dries
too fast.....
horrific shadows want to get me.....
under their spells.....
a sigh chokes me by the door.....
I can't escape.....
it's.....
too much.....
I have nothing to tell you, love
as you kept torturing me on and on.....
You didn't say a thing.....
and let me die here
~in solitude~
Wings of ice brush my face
taking my breath
as they pierce my skin as needles.....
I won't scream.....
it's pointless.....
and childish.....
No feelings are present within me.....
they were lost
~in memories~
I cannot speak any more
when words are the same threads of void
we created with our fake love.....
I fell for an illusion
for the millionth time.....
I made myself a total fool.....
Collapsed
~in ridiculous~
I crawl, trying to get away from you
but you drag me back.....
I can't escape this cheap theatre show.....
it repeats every day of my life.....
I can't let go of what I am....
or, what I used to be.....
I am nothing.....
Now, let me shelter in the surreal dreams,
don't steal my last ray of light.....
the midninght sun.....
Still keeps me alive, but
~in pain~
My eyes sting like never before,
I wish I would cry only when the sky will be cloudy,
Dearest child.....
Flamboyance of the circus spoiled you.....
You are no longer mine.....
Under the moonlight, my heart yearns for you.....
Dance with me for the last time,
Before you reach the stage of eternity.....
Sing for me as you did for so many times.....
Oh, beloved, do not break the mirrors.....
do not try to escape the smoke.....
Keep the magic in your heart.....
so I can keep mine....and live.....
Your embrace burns like fire,
But I will never leave you.....
Flamboyant colors harrass my eyes
I lose my breath as I wish to keep on walking.....
and I cannot carry on but crawling.....
I have failed, as usually.....
The ashes burn my skin.....
I still crave for your love.....
I look into your eyes and wait.....
Black rain falls upon us
and it stings......
and I cry of lack of love.....
and you cry because I scream for you.....
and I dream of an embrace.....
but we both failed, as usually.....
Silence pierces our souls.....
A light illusion that is taken away by the night.....
You touch my throat with wild hunger
as if you wish to murder me......
I sing for you in a thousand languages
and I hope you will be mine for real.....
It's like a fantasy that I do not want to let go of.....
an obsession that conquered me completely.....
Chain me with you and let's share hell.....
Let me taste you and die fulfilled.....
My distorted fantasy.....
