@Katherine Talbot:

i write based on how i feel and i can tell you that after studying a modernist play, in which there was only one character, creating an alter-ego to talk to[talking loud to himself], had religious and phylosophical bases....after finishing the study at school about it, that idea od soliloqium stuck into my mind until i found the courage to turn it into a poem.....thank you so much dear

I feel like your poem most of the times. Just a mere actor in life...