HI there I'm Cynthia
I won't really have some specific thing to post about
I'm really just going to use this as a blog.
I'll probably have random updates of the most amazing thing thats happened
or an update about the worst thing thats happened.
I like comments. I like reading them.

Far from perfect.

My night is going really shitty but anyways.

I got inspiration for a new piece of artwork, ARTWORK not wallpaper.
I think it had a deep meaning to it and I'm sure you'll understand it if I'm allowed to post it on here.
I'm going to work hard at making it look nice.
I just need the right angle and picture to make it work.
I can picture it all now.

My night day has been going really bad.
My sister ran out the house ignoring me yelling at her for stealing my hair clips.
My brother walks through the door and we start arguing in less then 10 mintues.
Of course its over something stupid that I of course didn't start.
I left the tv on and he attacked me for leaving it on, and said if I didn't turn it off he would hit me. I told him to hold on since I was doing something and then he walked over and like slapped/poked me in the eye which hurt and when I said that he of COURSE said "that didn't hurt you, you liar!" WTF yes it did, do you have some invisible connector to my body that allows you to sense what is and is not painful to me? Fuck off!
He really seriously pissed me off we argued about stupid stuff the WHOLE entire time which ended up of course with me leaving and going to my room crying.
I feel like they always pick on me and I always have to retreat to me room. I hate that. And then I always have to look online to some picture or some status that really upsets me. Or some thought that makes me hate myself. I really get down on myself because of it and I hate it.

I'm far too sensitive, far too sensitive for what the world has in store for me.

Happy birthday

So today is my birthday.

I've been pretty inactive on here recently and I'm going to be even more. I just came back from my little touring of colleges the past week and I'm leaving again this weekend for a soccer tournament. The college tour left me with so many things to have to do such as starting on all these essays and worst of all starting a portfolio since I want to be a Graphic Design major. That's tough having to include a drawings since I'm really bad at drawing but I guess I'll try my best. And I have no idea on the other hand what sort of things to include in my portfolio like paintings? or Things related to the major I want.

And then I also have school work to get started on 10 service hours for this semester and then I have a reading assignment I have yet to start. And then I also have my soccer tryouts next week which I am not looking forward to. I get traumatized whenever I have to run now SO scared I don't know why. Well I'm not here to complain about my work load just unlease it. I'm 17 today and I'm getting a brand new computer in september so you'll see more of me then and hopefully more work too!

The otaku has definitely helped me adjusting to photoshop and what I want to do for my major, thanks. Well I'll be doing stuff or finally checking out theotaku after a longgg time. I feel so serious in this post. XD

Can't

Really post much or get on otaku much since schoolll.
I'm having trouble studying for exams as in I'm not studying I don't feel like I'm doing anything and it's really making me nervous and worried.
And I've been taking too many naps during the day so I can't study and I don't study at night really.
I take naps since I'm still not used to the time change, I sleep in school, sleep at home and eat something and go back to bed lol.

Tomorrow.

Is when i go back to hell.
Or was I in hell all along?
Hmm I don't know it's a hard pick between the two, as in break or school.
To tell the truth I like break to get away from school.
I spent break moping around and doing nothing for I have no one to relate with here.

School is the exact same way no one to relate to.
I go in get out as fast as I can like a robbery.