Hello everyones, Just an ordinary day happening now...which isn't that great.
I'm going through some severe family stress this summer. I'm taking it oddly well though...like I don't dwell or cry about every single thing that has happened, I may only cry when tons of my family's stress builds up inside me.
My family is just really poor, you know? I mean I finally have a job and I'm getting some money from it hopefully...but my family doesn't even have any cars to take us too our jobs! That's another hude stress factor. I live with my grandma and she and I work at the same place (kiosk at the mall) and we've been having to ask random people if they would give us a ride DX. My mom and dad have a car...but they always work and never have the chance to drive my grandma and me..(my mom and my grandma are fighting anyway...long story about child support and claiming my sister and me...blagh..)
My grandma totally got screwed over with her car too. She had a black car that drove nicely until the engine died and we had no money to get it fixed, so my neighbor (who my grandma have been friends with since she was luike 14 O . o) said that he would trade our dead black car for this "good shape new red car"...so she did cause she didn't have a choice. About 4 days after we got the red car, it DIED!!!!!!! It died cause the engine was bad and it was missing some freaking parts! and our neighbor bought a new engine for the black car, sold it, and got tons of money for it! We were totally scammed and left with no car again! DX
WHY SUCH AN UNLUCKY FATE?
now I might even lose my job >< and our water/cable/and electricity is going to be shut off soon if we cant pay the bills in time!
I've got several other horrible things but I don't even wanna talk about..
but hey..the way things are...I should just go get drunk, do drugs or cut or even kill myself right? WRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I will never EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER do anything like that to myself. You are the weakest and lowest person if you do any of that! SO please, if you seem to have EVERYTHING go wrong in your life, please don't resort to any of that. Eventually everything that is going wrong will pass..and then your day will come to shine. Think of anything good that has happened in your life, even the SMALLEST good thing, just remember it, and my goodness it will help!
My boyfriend taught me to be an optimistic person in occasions like this. We both have learned and keep learning great things from each other, and we are hoping to teach as many people as we can!
So even after all these horrible things and bad luck my family, my friends and I are having, I'm still a very happy person and so should you all!!!!!!!
HAVE A GREAT DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I only have 13 pages remade. I've been doing everything free handed on paper, cause I don't have a printer or anything, and I've been inking it with just a little black marker, and shading it with an old dried up grey crayola marker, which looks rather nice : 0
but now I'm starting a job, I have to work at the local mall and sell sunglasses and jewlery at one of those mall stands.. >>;; greatttttt
but it's like really dead at the mall XD so now I'll be able to work on my manga there! haha...and hopefully make some good pay... o . o
I really hope to finish it soon...
I want to self publish it at www.lulu.com
I would love he fact of other people purchasing and reading it and enjoying it!! That would make me so happy ; w ;
then I could use whatever money I make, to finally help my family....
We are soooo freaking poor DX I mean I don't want to sound like I'm a baby and complaining and begging for money at all! but seriously, my house is falling apart and my parents and my grandma are all fighting over child support money crap over my sister and me..and..well it's rather annoying. Being threated to be taken away from home, being threatened that they are gonna tear the house down..being threatened that they are going to come and take all of my animals to the pound and be put to sleep...
it's not fun ya know?
sorry about the rant.. I could go on...
but that's why I hope people enjoy my mangas :' 3
spread the word! as soon as they are able to be sold, I'll let all of you know!
thank all of you so very much TT w TT
~~Ciara Jackson~~
~~DOUBLE MAXIMUS~~
