Oh I know. I was and still kind of am extremely self conscious about my weight. I didn't like wearing tight clothing at all because I thought it would prove how fat I really was if I did. I basically thought that until I was 'skinny' I would never get a guy or really be happy. It's a shitty way to think.
I'm getting over it and slowly learning that as long as I'm happy with my body, that's all that matters. Fuck everyone else. I bought a bikini this year, and I'm going to flaunt that shit because I'm proud of me. I hope you don't take it to heart what she says. If you know you're healthy, that's all that matters. Though I understand it's not easy to hear.
Yeah, that's true. It's just strange, I've gone over to friends' houses recently and they interact with their families. Their parents joke around while cooking meals together, and the kids don't feel the need to shut themselves in their rooms, which I do, because my room is kind of my home territory. I don't really hang out in the other rooms, I only leave my room to eat or to play video games with my brother. I probably would have gone on like that, and then I saw my friends' families acting like actual families. Sure, they all have their problems, but they still love and value each others' company. I'm pretty sure my parents are only still together because they feel like a divorce wouldn't be worth the expense and the effort. They pretty much act like two people who simply happen to share a living space and kids. They don't so much "live together" as "coexist". They've tried to impose 'family time' on us in the past, but most of it felt very forced, especially since we don't all share common interests. My brother and I often act as go-betweens because we share more common interest with our parents than our parents do with each other. The one good thing about this is that it's brought me and my brother closer. We used to have a kind of rivalry, but we're more friendly now.
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
This society is ridiculous. From what I've seen of your pictures, you look very pretty and fairly healthy. There is no one size that everyone should have to be. And although my weight has gone up and down, I've never gone out of the healthy range. How much I eat, or when I eat, or if I gain a few pounds--those are none of her damn business. Worse, she's made me very sensitive about my appearance so I have a hard time defending myself and find myself constantly trying to make excuses for myself even when I'm doing things that are perfectly within my rights, such as indulging in dessert or staying up late. In a couple months I move back into a dorm, and I probably won't be able to afford my own place until after college. I'll just try and get out more. I'm also looking for a job, because that will bring in some money, get me out, and at least partially get her off my back since she acts worse when she's stressed about money.
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Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
You didn't realize it because you didn't know any different. That's how I grew up, too, only it was my dad and not my mom. And there was a lot more yelling. And name calling. But my dad did the whole "you're getting fat" thing, too. And I am slightly overweight, but I was never fat, but I never thought that until I was 19 years old because my roommate told me she thought my size and build was what healthy, 'normal' people looked like. If you're happy with you, that's all that matters.
Any way you can move out on your own? Might be worth looking into if she causes you this much stress and aggravation.
Sarasface
Ethereal Wanderer (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 05/29/14 | Reply
@DemonsandAngels:
Thanks very much, and congratulations on finding your confidence. That's what society should aspire to.
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
Sarasface
Ethereal Wanderer (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 05/29/14 | Reply
@:
That's also possible, I know for a fact that's what my family does. The Internet does provide a good place to vent and discuss these things.
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
DemonsandAngels
Beautiful Disaster (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 05/28/14 | Reply
@Sarasface:
Oh I know. I was and still kind of am extremely self conscious about my weight. I didn't like wearing tight clothing at all because I thought it would prove how fat I really was if I did. I basically thought that until I was 'skinny' I would never get a guy or really be happy. It's a shitty way to think.
I'm getting over it and slowly learning that as long as I'm happy with my body, that's all that matters. Fuck everyone else. I bought a bikini this year, and I'm going to flaunt that shit because I'm proud of me. I hope you don't take it to heart what she says. If you know you're healthy, that's all that matters. Though I understand it's not easy to hear.
Sarasface
Ethereal Wanderer (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 05/28/14 | Reply
@:
Yeah, that's true. It's just strange, I've gone over to friends' houses recently and they interact with their families. Their parents joke around while cooking meals together, and the kids don't feel the need to shut themselves in their rooms, which I do, because my room is kind of my home territory. I don't really hang out in the other rooms, I only leave my room to eat or to play video games with my brother. I probably would have gone on like that, and then I saw my friends' families acting like actual families. Sure, they all have their problems, but they still love and value each others' company. I'm pretty sure my parents are only still together because they feel like a divorce wouldn't be worth the expense and the effort. They pretty much act like two people who simply happen to share a living space and kids. They don't so much "live together" as "coexist". They've tried to impose 'family time' on us in the past, but most of it felt very forced, especially since we don't all share common interests. My brother and I often act as go-betweens because we share more common interest with our parents than our parents do with each other. The one good thing about this is that it's brought me and my brother closer. We used to have a kind of rivalry, but we're more friendly now.
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
Sarasface
Ethereal Wanderer (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 05/28/14 | Reply
@DemonsandAngels:
This society is ridiculous. From what I've seen of your pictures, you look very pretty and fairly healthy. There is no one size that everyone should have to be. And although my weight has gone up and down, I've never gone out of the healthy range. How much I eat, or when I eat, or if I gain a few pounds--those are none of her damn business. Worse, she's made me very sensitive about my appearance so I have a hard time defending myself and find myself constantly trying to make excuses for myself even when I'm doing things that are perfectly within my rights, such as indulging in dessert or staying up late. In a couple months I move back into a dorm, and I probably won't be able to afford my own place until after college. I'll just try and get out more. I'm also looking for a job, because that will bring in some money, get me out, and at least partially get her off my back since she acts worse when she's stressed about money.
Last edited by Sarasface at 4:38:25 PM EDT on May 28, 2014.
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
DemonsandAngels
Beautiful Disaster (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 05/28/14 | Reply
You didn't realize it because you didn't know any different. That's how I grew up, too, only it was my dad and not my mom. And there was a lot more yelling. And name calling. But my dad did the whole "you're getting fat" thing, too. And I am slightly overweight, but I was never fat, but I never thought that until I was 19 years old because my roommate told me she thought my size and build was what healthy, 'normal' people looked like. If you're happy with you, that's all that matters.
Any way you can move out on your own? Might be worth looking into if she causes you this much stress and aggravation.