Yes you do deserve it, don't think that you don't cause you do. If it helps I couldn't ask for a better sensei. So put turn that frown upside down.

master should be happy for the fam you have on theO. It may seem like you do not deserve it but most times I feel the same but this is something that happened because that mean these people care the one that say hi and hope that you take care. So smile mr Drunk