Meow! Welcome to Haphazard Tirades!
Yeah, so... where to start?
Please excuse any spelling/grammar errors; I know I'm pretty crazy about that stuff sometimes and I'll correct it, or I just won't care...
This is pretty much my crazy, everyday, monotonous, exciting, boring, you-don't-really-care, insane, awesome, pointless, blog thingy where I write stuff! It may or may not contain anything pertaining to manga, anime, or the great mysteries of life...
So, please enjoy and comment if you feel like it!
And don't forget to enjoy the video interlude at this time...
Before I get all serious on ya: I'd like to share that yesterday after going to the mall to get my mom a b-day present and other what-nots including an mcr cd (and barely surviving the trip home on the light rail transit system) I ...
Just thinking about whether or not to send this to Anthony...because he and Rachel are now dating (yeah if you look waaaay back in my posts, she's the one I thought I was "competing" with for him, see page three bottom post "screw titles"). Real n...
So, I looked through amy previous posts the other day and realised that there's a big gap missing from my life. Apparently, I only posted afeter Anthony did something nice or cute, and not when he was getting on my nerves. Well, last Friday, the 26th, we broke up. It just got to a point where we were acting more like friends. And not even really good friends; just friends that happened to walk in the halls with eachother, sometimes talk and hug an kiss automatically rather than with real feeling. So, it wasn't one of those painful depressing break-ups, it was mutual understanding, and weirdly I feel a lot better now. I don't feel as burdened or depressed like before when I saw him paying attention to other girls before he looked at me. Of course, I wasn't feeling exactly thrilled at Musical practice the other day when I had to watch him (because of stage crew) dance with another girl. It seemed like he had no porblem with putting his hands on her waist... It just got me thinking if he had looked that happy back when we were dating as he did then...
Whatever, I shouldn't dwell too much on that or I'll get all depressed. But, I seem to be much happier now, and weirdly enough, it seems that breaking up was helthier for our relathionship in one way: we were talking to eachother that friday and the following monday more than we had in a while (like a week or two...) and now I don't feel bad if I ignore him or don't say something in the silence :/
Eh, on a happy note: watch this video and you will be absolutely smitten by my new crush ~~ wow I bounce back fast, huh? XD
Well, it sure has been a while since I've posted in here, hunh? Since (well, Christmas) stuff has happened... For example, my birthday! whoo! [Thanks to everyone who sent birthday wishes, they got here!] I haven't bee completely away from theO, I just haven't done much because I'm a lazy bum . Well, we had A LOT of snow last weekend which made us have no school last week, and now all of our teachers are giving us homework for the week we missed. But, I've tried to keep up with everyone else's stuff and comment and hug and fave. Maybe I'll try putting up some stuff. I just feel like it's not worth it at times tho, because I rarely do fanart nowadays, and I feel out of place because I usually only do black-and-white lineart instead of all the fancy stuff you guys do sometimes. Oh well!
Now, onto the pity party. Warning: emo post is emo, don't read it if you don't want to. Anyway, This Saturday was Valentine's Day as I'm sure some of you are aware of. Well Anth finally took me out somewhere (to a sushi place!) and we had fun. The whole date was pretty short, and he spent more money on his food than me because my mom told me to eat some dinner before, since I didn't know what we were doing. Long story short- it was really nice, but only an hour long.
So, I thought naturally we'd spend some time together over the weekend since our six month anniversary was on Wednesday. Well, he's in the musical and he plays the lead's best friend, so he has to be at every practice, which sucks because they have them even on weekends now. So when I asked him if he wanted to hang out he said he was too busy between musical practice and homework and after that he'd be too tired.
This pisses me off because that means he's spending so much time with everyone else but me! Sometimes when we're walking through the halls, I feel like if I just silently disappeared into the crowd, he wouldn't notice. Seriously, I feel like sometimes my other friends pay more attention to me than he does. So, i don't know if this has just been a waste of half a year, or if I can salvage this relationship, cuz it sure seems like I'm the only one putting any effort into it at all. I bet if I didn't, he would never talk to me, text me, or even hold my hand. I'm starting to get sick of it...But I don't want to break up with him if I haven't truly tried.
Sorry for taking up your time, but if anyone has any advice, I would appreciate it. :
Whew! So much to tell, so little time! Well, let's start with the obvious: how was everyone's holiday? I hope it was good, cuz mine was (mostly)! We spent Chistmas Eve at my uncle's and had fun playing pictionary man. Oh, and one of my cousins had to leave early, b/c he plays in his church's band for services, and we forgot to take the yearly family photo while he was there. Soo, his sister had a carboard cutout of Taylor Lautner, a.k.a. jacob from the Twilight series, and we used him as a stand-in for my cousin! It was hilarious and kinda creeppy at the same time... Christmas was spent with my momma and sista! We also visited the grandparents instead of having them over for dinner, and it worked out nice actually. My mom wasn't a s stressed out as she woiuld have been and we had a nice day. :) Yesterday, my dad's brother and nephew came over. It was pretty cool to see them b/c they live a few states away (about 5 hours) and I hadn't seen my cousin for a bout a year. Among the awesome time spent with family, some pretty cool presents were acquired as well, such as:
Brawl (hecks yeah!)
Princess Bride (the best movie ever with princesses and brides)
Angels & Demons (BEST MOVIE EVERRR! cuz Ewan McGregor is HOTTT!)
Sakura Micron pens
Various gift cards
The Ender Series by Orson Scott Card (which I definitely reccomend)
and most awesomely, a beautiful journal/sketchbook given to me from Anthony!
So, I wish you all a Happy New Year as well! Stay safe, warm, and healthy!
~gaijin
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. But, I've tried to keep up with everyone else's stuff and comment and hug and fave. Maybe I'll try putting up some stuff. I just feel like it's not worth it at times tho, because I rarely do fanart nowadays, and I feel out of place because I usually only do black-and-white lineart instead of all the fancy stuff you guys do sometimes. Oh well!