Well, it sure has been a while since I've posted in here, hunh? Since (well, Christmas) stuff has happened... For example, my birthday! whoo! [Thanks to everyone who sent birthday wishes, they got here!] I haven't bee completely away from theO, I just haven't done much because I'm a lazy bum . Well, we had A LOT of snow last weekend which made us have no school last week, and now all of our teachers are giving us homework for the week we missed
. But, I've tried to keep up with everyone else's stuff and comment and hug and fave. Maybe I'll try putting up some stuff. I just feel like it's not worth it at times tho, because I rarely do fanart nowadays, and I feel out of place because I usually only do black-and-white lineart instead of all the fancy stuff you guys do sometimes. Oh well!
Now, onto the pity party. Warning: emo post is emo, don't read it if you don't want to. Anyway, This Saturday was Valentine's Day as I'm sure some of you are aware of. Well Anth finally took me out somewhere (to a sushi place!) and we had fun
. The whole date was pretty short, and he spent more money on his food than me because my mom told me to eat some dinner before, since I didn't know what we were doing. Long story short- it was really nice, but only an hour long.
So, I thought naturally we'd spend some time together over the weekend since our six month anniversary was on Wednesday. Well, he's in the musical and he plays the lead's best friend, so he has to be at every practice, which sucks because they have them even on weekends now. So when I asked him if he wanted to hang out he said he was too busy between musical practice and homework and after that he'd be too tired.
This pisses me off because that means he's spending so much time with everyone else but me! Sometimes when we're walking through the halls, I feel like if I just silently disappeared into the crowd, he wouldn't notice. Seriously, I feel like sometimes my other friends pay more attention to me than he does. So, i don't know if this has just been a waste of half a year, or if I can salvage this relationship, cuz it sure seems like I'm the only one putting any effort into it at all. I bet if I didn't, he would never talk to me, text me, or even hold my hand. I'm starting to get sick of it...But I don't want to break up with him if I haven't truly tried.
Sorry for taking up your time, but if anyone has any advice, I would appreciate it. :
Take care, Auf Wiedersehen!
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