Aw man, I'm really sorry to hear that. We all feel that way at least a few times in our lifetime. Sometimes, we feel like the Devil is pushing us and that can be very stressful. I recently got out of this phase for personal reasons and it was hard. However, I was able to win the battle. Trust me, you can get through this. You just got to keep on moving forward and know that there is hope. Just got to have faith.
I'll keep you in my prayers~