So you know how I was saying my sister left near Christmas? Apparently she's actually leaving on the 29th of November. A whole freaking month shorter T.T *bursts into tears*
^^; <---- Normal
T.T <----- When something bad happens
-T_T-' <----- When people tell me that I'm being too emo. (Internally crying)
T_T <---- Stay like that for the next day.
^^; <-- Somewhat back to normal.
Hehe I am a complex little child. It can be easily shown in a diagram. *points below*
^^ (<--- me normally)
^T.T^ (<--- me after dad leaves--note happiness on the exterior)
T.T (<--- me after failing math test)
^^ (<--- me after quickly recovering)
Well it's easy if all you do is act happy and hyper the whole time. xDD That's what I do, except when I fail a math test or something. Then I'll cry... ^^
Well you're just must stronger than me, let me say that. I'm not good at hiding my emotions. My aunt says that they're written all across my face. So... I wouldn't be a good actress ^^;
And she can be useful for some things... Like her rip-off drawings. >_<
Haha well I just put on a brave face, when inside I'm all turmoil. ^^ And I'm quick to cry, like if someone yells at me. If a teacher yelled at me in front of the class, I'd cry. :D But for things like that I bury it inside myself, and distract myself by doing other things. :)) I'm trying to perfect the act of talking and crying without sounding like it. xDD
Yeah, and I'll become a voice actress and move to Japan. X3
Yeah. See, you're stronger than me. You always hit your problems head-on, and get through it without dwelling on it. I just bury myself deep inside myself and go along with it. I'll just cry, as if it'll solve any of my stupid problems. Like, hide in my room forever until everything disappears. Or until I disappear. Mrs. Strong.
*hugs* Thanks. Yeah, one day I'll be able to leave.
Siblings can hate each other. It's a part of life. xDD
No, they can't really. And plus, I don't want to make this any harder than it has to be, and look at if from other people's point of view. My dad has to go to work or else we'll die, so seeing his daughter crying her eyes out because he's leaving isn't really going to make things any easier, now is it? ^^
Haha iie. :)) You just have to see that I don't have a sibling, and the closest thing to that is you guys, and my parents. It's not like I can interact with my pets, ya know... And they aren't exactly growing up and moving on to college. But we'll all be doing that eventually, so it is inevitable. :D
Well I know that now... *sighs* Hahah Angela as your sibling? Wow, you seem to hate her too much for that...
Yeah, true. I don't know what I would have said in that situation. Anyways, no one can really feel what we feel... It's hard to relate when you don't know exactly what's happening... So. Yeah.
Yeah, we'll get through it. I just don't want my sister to grow up. Like, I always thought she would be right there next to me my whole life, but after college, she'll get married and leave me behind for her own family. Your dad, I know, it's still hard to not have a parent. But it's a job, and it won't last forever... Is that mean to say? ^^;
Of course she wasn't leaving because of you! She's your sister and loves you as much as you love her! And even if you guys argue a lot, it's obviously normal because I argue with you, Chey, and Angela a lot and you guys are like sisters to me!
*shrugs* Well, even if I did sound depressed, what could I expect of you, Angela, and Chey? I didn't expect you guys to burst out crying. The most I would ask you guys for was a "That sucks" or "I'm sorry", but really, does that really help? It's not like you guys bawling the whole day cause my dad is leaving would really make me feel better, you know? I'll just wallow in my self-suffering. :))
Yes, maybe it won't be so lonely anymore...
Last edited by Hulaberry32 at 5:57:28 PM CDT on October 21, 2010.
Because I was angry with myself! I was angry at how I hadn't noticed what was happening. I was angry that no one told me right away. I was just confused and hurt, and I thought she was leaving because of me.
Well you didn't really sound too depressed when your dad left, either, though... Gomen ne. *pats head*
We can be lonely little children together.
Last edited by BrotherlyLoveHK at 5:44:25 PM CDT on October 21, 2010.
Well now's the perfect opportunity to go and spend time with her! Make the most of the time you have now, because you still have over a month to spend with her! Live in the present, my friend! Don't dwell on the negatives, create positives!
Yeah, fun...
Well you were kind of just like "My sister is going to freaking Idaho and she's going to stay there until she's done with college." That doesn't really invoke strong feelings in me, unlike the novel you just posted in your world. I'm sorry... You kinda gave me that same reaction when I told you about my dad, you know. ^^; Not much else you can really say in that kind of situation...
True...
When you told me you sounded more indifferent and angry than sad! I thought you were like happy she was leaving!
Well yeah, it's kinda weird for me, because she's not even leaving right now and I'm still horrible. I can only imagine what it's gonna be like when she actually leaves...
Yeah. Write her a letter or something. Send her spontaneous gifts and crap.
Don't feel bad. I didn't really explain it very well when I was talking to you this morning... I guess I didn't explain it to anyone very well, because you gave me the same reaction that everyone else did. And Angela was just like, "Suck it up." Die Angela. *sighs* Yeah, I was pretty bad. Tonight's gonna be living hell too...
Yeah, I bet it is. Like, legit.
Well, like, I just mean lately... Like, this whole month has been horrible.
Well I knew if I went into detail, I would end up babbling and crying!
And homework is the best mood killer. Well, except for the fact that I'm already like... Dead.
*hugs, and sniffles* No. After she leaves for good on Christmas, I won't get to see her until who knows when... Like, when her college term ends. Or maybe right before she starts college. She won't be here for my birthday... Or or... She won't... *bursts into tears again* And...
I never realized how much I truly do love her. Like, I didn't even think I would cry when my mom told me, so it was totally unexpected when I cried for the next three hours straight T.T
You should have seen me after lunch today, too. A volleyball hit me in the face in PE, and I started crying... But not because it hurt... I don't know why. Then in English I was sorta depressed, and I could barely finish my test and stuff...
And like, everyone thinks that it's not a big deal. I mean, "Big whoop, your sister's leaving, suck it up." And they're not really helping...
See, I can't go a day without something horrible happening. T.T
*hugs again* It's okay, I wrote this right after I found out last night at like... 11. So.
*sighs* Thanks for being a good friend.
Last edited by BrotherlyLoveHK at 5:21:59 PM CDT on October 21, 2010.
*bursts into tears (like for real, my grandparents think I need therapy)*
I *sniffles* didn't think it would be that bad if your sister left, but apparently I wouldn't know. T.T' I guess it kind of feels like when my dad left, but at least I get to see him every two months.
You don't know what you've got until it's gone; one of my favorite sayings, because it's so true. I hope you feel better, and I know you'll recover after your sister leaves. I did after my dad left, and whenever he comes back it's the best feeling in the world. I love him ten times more and appreciate him now that he's never around.
I'm sure your sister will come back and visit you from time to time, and those memories you had between each other will never disappear cause they're there. *points* Yeah, right there. In your heart.
I hope you feel better, and if you need me, text or PM me. :)
PS. I'm sorry for the day late-ness as I see you wrote this yesterday... Dx
Last edited by Hulaberry32 at 5:14:17 PM CDT on October 21, 2010.
Hulaberry32
Primadonna (Otaku Legend) | Posted 10/21/10 | Reply
@MiseryMiss:
Yarri yarri... 0____o' There's no time to waste! You must take action immediately! Time is of the essence!
MiseryMiss
Otaku Legend | Posted 10/21/10 | Reply
@Hulaberry32:
So you know how I was saying my sister left near Christmas? Apparently she's actually leaving on the 29th of November. A whole freaking month shorter T.T *bursts into tears*
Hulaberry32
Primadonna (Otaku Legend) | Posted 10/21/10 | Reply
@MiseryMiss:
Over my house it's all cloudy and dark. 0____o
MiseryMiss
Otaku Legend | Posted 10/21/10 | Reply
@Hulaberry32:
Ugh. What you talkin bout fool?! It's all blue skies and puffy clouds over where I live! T_T
Hulaberry32
Primadonna (Otaku Legend) | Posted 10/21/10 | Reply
@MiseryMiss:
Hahahahaha *Renge laugh* Jkizzle, jkizzle! At least it's somewhat cloudy outside! Now you can be like T_:D_T!
MiseryMiss
Otaku Legend | Posted 10/21/10 | Reply
@Hulaberry32:
Die. -T_T-' See what I did there?
Hulaberry32
Primadonna (Otaku Legend) | Posted 10/21/10 | Reply
@MiseryMiss:
LOL. Wow, people think you're emo?! How do they figure that?! X3
MiseryMiss
Otaku Legend | Posted 10/21/10 | Reply
@Hulaberry32:
Hm. Kay, this is me.
^^; <---- Normal
T.T <----- When something bad happens
-T_T-' <----- When people tell me that I'm being too emo. (Internally crying)
T_T <---- Stay like that for the next day.
^^; <-- Somewhat back to normal.
Hulaberry32
Primadonna (Otaku Legend) | Posted 10/21/10 | Reply
@MiseryMiss:
Hehe I am a complex little child. It can be easily shown in a diagram. *points below*
^^ (<--- me normally)
^T.T^ (<--- me after dad leaves--note happiness on the exterior)
T.T (<--- me after failing math test)
^^ (<--- me after quickly recovering)
See! It's just like math! xDD
MiseryMiss
Otaku Legend | Posted 10/21/10 | Reply
@Hulaberry32:
Ugh -_-' You confuse me.
Hulaberry32
Primadonna (Otaku Legend) | Posted 10/21/10 | Reply
@MiseryMiss:
Haha join the club...
Well it's easy if all you do is act happy and hyper the whole time. xDD That's what I do, except when I fail a math test or something. Then I'll cry... ^^
MiseryMiss
Otaku Legend | Posted 10/21/10 | Reply
@Hulaberry32:
I hardly call that helpful...
Well you're just must stronger than me, let me say that. I'm not good at hiding my emotions. My aunt says that they're written all across my face. So... I wouldn't be a good actress ^^;
Definitely xDD
Hulaberry32
Primadonna (Otaku Legend) | Posted 10/21/10 | Reply
@MiseryMiss:
And she can be useful for some things... Like her rip-off drawings. >_<
Haha well I just put on a brave face, when inside I'm all turmoil. ^^ And I'm quick to cry, like if someone yells at me. If a teacher yelled at me in front of the class, I'd cry. :D But for things like that I bury it inside myself, and distract myself by doing other things. :)) I'm trying to perfect the act of talking and crying without sounding like it. xDD
Yeah, and I'll become a voice actress and move to Japan. X3
MiseryMiss
Otaku Legend | Posted 10/21/10 | Reply
@Hulaberry32:
True :)
Yeah. See, you're stronger than me. You always hit your problems head-on, and get through it without dwelling on it. I just bury myself deep inside myself and go along with it. I'll just cry, as if it'll solve any of my stupid problems. Like, hide in my room forever until everything disappears. Or until I disappear. Mrs. Strong.
*hugs* Thanks. Yeah, one day I'll be able to leave.
Hulaberry32
Primadonna (Otaku Legend) | Posted 10/21/10 | Reply
@MiseryMiss:
Siblings can hate each other. It's a part of life. xDD
No, they can't really. And plus, I don't want to make this any harder than it has to be, and look at if from other people's point of view. My dad has to go to work or else we'll die, so seeing his daughter crying her eyes out because he's leaving isn't really going to make things any easier, now is it? ^^
Haha iie. :)) You just have to see that I don't have a sibling, and the closest thing to that is you guys, and my parents. It's not like I can interact with my pets, ya know... And they aren't exactly growing up and moving on to college. But we'll all be doing that eventually, so it is inevitable. :D
MiseryMiss
Otaku Legend | Posted 10/21/10 | Reply
@Hulaberry32:
Well I know that now... *sighs* Hahah Angela as your sibling? Wow, you seem to hate her too much for that...
Yeah, true. I don't know what I would have said in that situation. Anyways, no one can really feel what we feel... It's hard to relate when you don't know exactly what's happening... So. Yeah.
Yeah, we'll get through it. I just don't want my sister to grow up. Like, I always thought she would be right there next to me my whole life, but after college, she'll get married and leave me behind for her own family. Your dad, I know, it's still hard to not have a parent. But it's a job, and it won't last forever... Is that mean to say? ^^;
Hulaberry32
Primadonna (Otaku Legend) | Posted 10/21/10 | Reply
@MiseryMiss:
Of course she wasn't leaving because of you! She's your sister and loves you as much as you love her! And even if you guys argue a lot, it's obviously normal because I argue with you, Chey, and Angela a lot and you guys are like sisters to me!
*shrugs* Well, even if I did sound depressed, what could I expect of you, Angela, and Chey? I didn't expect you guys to burst out crying. The most I would ask you guys for was a "That sucks" or "I'm sorry", but really, does that really help? It's not like you guys bawling the whole day cause my dad is leaving would really make me feel better, you know? I'll just wallow in my self-suffering. :))
Yes, maybe it won't be so lonely anymore...
Last edited by Hulaberry32 at 5:57:28 PM CDT on October 21, 2010.
MiseryMiss
Otaku Legend | Posted 10/21/10 | Reply
@Hulaberry32:
Yeah. I guess so.
Because I was angry with myself! I was angry at how I hadn't noticed what was happening. I was angry that no one told me right away. I was just confused and hurt, and I thought she was leaving because of me.
Well you didn't really sound too depressed when your dad left, either, though... Gomen ne. *pats head*
We can be lonely little children together.
Last edited by BrotherlyLoveHK at 5:44:25 PM CDT on October 21, 2010.
Hulaberry32
Primadonna (Otaku Legend) | Posted 10/21/10 | Reply
@MiseryMiss:
Well now's the perfect opportunity to go and spend time with her! Make the most of the time you have now, because you still have over a month to spend with her! Live in the present, my friend! Don't dwell on the negatives, create positives!
Yeah, fun...
Well you were kind of just like "My sister is going to freaking Idaho and she's going to stay there until she's done with college." That doesn't really invoke strong feelings in me, unlike the novel you just posted in your world. I'm sorry... You kinda gave me that same reaction when I told you about my dad, you know. ^^; Not much else you can really say in that kind of situation...
True...
When you told me you sounded more indifferent and angry than sad! I thought you were like happy she was leaving!
Cause we all know how great homework is...
MiseryMiss
Otaku Legend | Posted 10/21/10 | Reply
@Hulaberry32:
Well yeah, it's kinda weird for me, because she's not even leaving right now and I'm still horrible. I can only imagine what it's gonna be like when she actually leaves...
Yeah. Write her a letter or something. Send her spontaneous gifts and crap.
Don't feel bad. I didn't really explain it very well when I was talking to you this morning... I guess I didn't explain it to anyone very well, because you gave me the same reaction that everyone else did. And Angela was just like, "Suck it up." Die Angela. *sighs* Yeah, I was pretty bad. Tonight's gonna be living hell too...
Yeah, I bet it is. Like, legit.
Well, like, I just mean lately... Like, this whole month has been horrible.
Well I knew if I went into detail, I would end up babbling and crying!
And homework is the best mood killer. Well, except for the fact that I'm already like... Dead.
Hulaberry32
Primadonna (Otaku Legend) | Posted 10/21/10 | Reply
@MiseryMiss:
I was that same exact way. I was like "Oh my dad's leaving, okay." And then we he actually left... Fail. ^^
But of course you love your sister, and hopefully she'll be able to like... Skype with you or something. :DD
Now I feel bad, because I didn't know you felt like this. T.T You should've said something woman!
I think the empathy level at our school is worse than our test scores...
Can too! Like Saturdays are good days, and the Anime Vegas con!
Ya still should've said something today! Dx
*pats on head* Anime is the best medicine.. :3 *forgets all sadness when watching anime*
MiseryMiss
Otaku Legend | Posted 10/21/10 | Reply
@Hulaberry32:
*hugs, and sniffles* No. After she leaves for good on Christmas, I won't get to see her until who knows when... Like, when her college term ends. Or maybe right before she starts college. She won't be here for my birthday... Or or... She won't... *bursts into tears again* And...
I never realized how much I truly do love her. Like, I didn't even think I would cry when my mom told me, so it was totally unexpected when I cried for the next three hours straight T.T
You should have seen me after lunch today, too. A volleyball hit me in the face in PE, and I started crying... But not because it hurt... I don't know why. Then in English I was sorta depressed, and I could barely finish my test and stuff...
And like, everyone thinks that it's not a big deal. I mean, "Big whoop, your sister's leaving, suck it up." And they're not really helping...
See, I can't go a day without something horrible happening. T.T
*hugs again* It's okay, I wrote this right after I found out last night at like... 11. So.
*sighs* Thanks for being a good friend.
Last edited by BrotherlyLoveHK at 5:21:59 PM CDT on October 21, 2010.
Hulaberry32
Primadonna (Otaku Legend) | Posted 10/21/10 | Reply
*bursts into tears (like for real, my grandparents think I need therapy)*
I *sniffles* didn't think it would be that bad if your sister left, but apparently I wouldn't know. T.T' I guess it kind of feels like when my dad left, but at least I get to see him every two months.
You don't know what you've got until it's gone; one of my favorite sayings, because it's so true. I hope you feel better, and I know you'll recover after your sister leaves. I did after my dad left, and whenever he comes back it's the best feeling in the world. I love him ten times more and appreciate him now that he's never around.
I'm sure your sister will come back and visit you from time to time, and those memories you had between each other will never disappear cause they're there. *points* Yeah, right there. In your heart.
I hope you feel better, and if you need me, text or PM me. :)
PS. I'm sorry for the day late-ness as I see you wrote this yesterday... Dx
Last edited by Hulaberry32 at 5:14:17 PM CDT on October 21, 2010.