see what is see

found.

I feel only warmth, I hear only sound.

I cannot see, for I am bound.

to a life of darness never found.

give me your eyes, so I can be found.

( poem end )

short storyish thing

love letter.

when they look at me all they ever see is blind.

they look at me for what i can't do and not what i can.

they see me as a bother, a burden , and a nucince.

but you.

what you see is far more different.

you see me the way i see my self, and more.

you wrap kind words around me without doubt.

your all i ever wanted and no matter what the world thinks.

i want you to stay with me.

for ever.

( about)

well i haven't updated in for ever soo i posted some random crap.

of course this is about alex and renji.

alex is very worried about what he is to the world, he is very self contious.
and often feels that he isn't good enough for renji.

but

renji on the other hand couldn't be more happy with him.

because ( like any boyfriend ) is insanlely in love with his lovers body, even if it isn't perfect. and when alex feels down renji is right there to lift him back up ^^

ohh yes. i was hopeing if oy guys had any questions about my characters pls feel free to ask ^^

the festival

the fireworks shot across the sky. music, lights, and people, littered the area.

alex groaned in pain as renji sat beside him, tea in hand.

"urrrggg... why did i eat so much icecream...owwwww..." alex gripped his tummy and curled in pain.

renji laughed under his breath as he rubbed alex's back. "cause you dont know when to stop, now drink some tea it will help", he held the tea to his hands as alex carefully grabbed it. "thank you"

alex sat up and proped himself against renji as he sipped from the luke warm tea.

renji cuddled into him as he moved the hair from his eyes. "alex.. y-you look amasing."
alex sperted out his rea as his face turned beat red. "WH-WHAT !!,, y-you can't be serious" alex turned to face renji "are you?"
renji smiled and slowly stood up. "come alex, lets go" he reach for alexs hand and lifted him up. alex dusted himself off and attached himself to renji.

"renji, please dont take me through any crowds, i dont have my guide stick with me and it souds pretty busy."

renji laughing as he held ale closer to him. "well i told you to bring it, but noooo you didn't want to feel out of place." alex in a huff, frowned. "well its ture, everyone treats me like a kid. it better off that they didn't know i was blind." renji sighed, "what will i do with you"

renji lead alex to some nearby docks. they sat as the grand fireworks blasted in the background. the moonlight shimmered across the lake, the reflection of the fireworks exploded on the surface.

"i wish you could see this" renji said underhisbreath as he looked into alex's pale, vacant eyes. "i do too" alex said almost intears.

he cluched renji as hard as he could.
" come on now don't cry" renji whipped the tear away with the sleave of his komono. "its a fesival, your supose to be happy. i even dressed like this for you", alex alittle upset turned away from renji. "its not like it matters, its not like i can see you anyways." "aww comeon alex i didn't mean it like that" panicing about what to do, he quickely pulled alex's shirt off.

"W-WHAT ARE YOU DOING" alex turned aways as he blush and covered up what little body he had."

"what do you think im doing, were going swimming" renji said as he undid his long komono leaving nothing but his underwear. "now comeon" renji turned to alex and pulled his pants down revileing his underwear as well.

"a-are you sure we are aloud" alex said nervously as he diped his feet into the water. "of course we are i dont see a sign" renji lifted alex into his arms as he jumped into the water"

the water splashed everywere soaking the dock and some of their clothes.

renji and alex swam about care free and happy.
a couple hours passed and alex slowly became tired.

"r-r-r-renji i-im r-r-really c-cold-d" alex stoped swimming and stood as he qwivered.

renji swam over and wraped his arms around him. "better?" he said as he kissed him lightly on the forehead. "y-yeah.... thank you, you know for everything. i really had fun today, you made me feel... worth something" alex lowered his head and held renji back. "why wouldn't you, alex is there something your not telling me?"
renji looked down with concern.

"n-no.... its just i feel so useless, you and kass are always doing things for me. i feel like im burdening everyone." renji shocked held him closer "dont say that. EVER!.. ok your important, not just to me but to everyone around you. so dont say your a burden. ok?" he tiled his head down and kissed alex's eyes. "dont hide from me" renji said as he waited for alex to open his eyes.

"renji.. your the only one i don't hide from" alex opened his eyes, they were whole and white like the moon light that sourounded them. "ahhh, there they are." renji smiled then lifted him out of the water and walked him to shore.

he wraped his komono over him and called kass to pick them up.

they spent the night as they always did reading books and cuddeling.
alex feel asleap much earlier then normal, renji soon followed he snuck into alex's bed and snuggled into him, he stoked his hair as he wispered softly. "roses are red, violets are blue, you may not be perfect but i still love you."

to see again pt 3

* at the hotel *

renji was cuddled up with alex tightly in his arms.

" how are they?, your eyes i mean" renji gently felt the think bandage across his eyes, being sure not to harm him.

alex smiled, " im fine, do you want to see?" renji jumped at the thought. but your still pretty swolen you can't open your eyes yet." laughing alex sat up and began to undo the bandage. "its ok i can't open my eyes anyway, so theres nothing to worry about.", "fine" renji gently helped him remove the bandage, he slowly lifed it off reviling his seme-swolen and brused eyes. "how do they look?" alex said with a soft hint of shame, "aww they look soo painful, you sure they dont hurt?", renji shifted upwards as he stared at his face and slowly whiped his hair away."im sure, i promis you. just wait by tomorrow ill be like everyone else." alex smiled at the thought as a seriouse silence fell acros the room. renji pause in worry. "alex... no matter what you see, please don't change how you feel about me or anyone else ok?" alex frownd as his mind scaned the thought. "renji why would i do that, your the world to me, you accepted me when no one else would and you gave up everything to stay and help me when i was alone..." alex cringed, as he slowly put the bandage back on. renji helping tie it nuzzled into his chest as if he was a child. "alex... i did that cause i love you, and i would do anything for you, but... the truth is, i am soo afraid of looseing you. ever moment that your not with me kills. the only thing i can do is worry weitheror not you ok..so..so-" "ok i promis" alex interupted. he snuggled into renji and fell asleep. renji, watching over him stroked his hair and fell to his side.

mitsuki and kass came in with food movies and all of alexes favourite books. ( both braille and one that they read to him)

the night was filled with laughs and stories, all leading up to the next day, when alex would see for the frist time in 10 years.

to see again pt 2

(all) "ALEX!!"

renji, mitsuki and kass all jupmed up and ran to him.
the docotr who led him in smiled. "you can remove that bandages. but he won't beable to open his eyes till the swelling gose down." the doctor reached into his pocket and presented two small bottles of meds. "take these twice and these yellow ones when your in pain, ok?" he handed them kass for safe keeping.

"ok ill be sure he takes them" kass replied.

mitsuki walked over to join kass. "meds? hmmm i hope hes not in too much pain"
the doctor laughed "i dont think hes in pain." he point over to alex and renji, who were playfully cuddling and tickling.
mitsuki smiled. "there back to their normal selves." kass reached her hand around mitsuki's waist. "lets get something to eat, well leave them alone for now" "ok" mitsuki looked over to alex and renji. "me and kass are going to get some food well meet you in the hotel, ok?" renji renji drew his attention away from alex. "sure, ill get this spaz dressed and gather his stuff" he laughed as poke alex. "im not a spaz" crindging from the tickeling and poking.

mitsuki and kas left the room "cya later"

to see again pt 1

...Silence filled the room.
renji , kass , and mitsuki, were all sitting in the waiting room at the hospital. the air was stale and the the walls were an unlively tint.

renji fiddled nervously. he had been here befor about 5 days ago, when they frist brought alex in for surgery,

but he couldn't wait another minuite. the past five days had been sleepless and filled with worry.

kass bent over resting against renji. "ren you look horrible, why dont you get some rest, you know where out hotel room is." renji looked over exausted. "no, im not leaving, not when alex is in there." kass smiled " alex is fine. he is just healing. even the doctor said that he's healing nicely". " i know that but what if something gose wrong!" renji cluched his hands. "renji-san stop it !" mitsuki interupted, " alex is fine, im sure, he is a tough guy. ....so please don't worry anymore.. you want to look nice for when alex finally sees you, right?" mitsuki leaned over and rested on the other side of reni, leaving him cuddled from both ends.

"hey...hows every one?" alex waddled into the room face covered in bandages and nothing but a hospital gown.

everyone looked up in amasment. (all) "ALEX!!!"

to be continued