see what is see

found.

I feel only warmth, I hear only sound.

I cannot see, for I am bound.

to a life of darness never found.

give me your eyes, so I can be found.

( poem end )

short storyish thing

love letter.

when they look at me all they ever see is blind.

they look at me for what i can't do and not what i can.

they see me as a bother, a burden , and a nucince.

but you.

what you see is far more different.

you see me the way i see my self, and more.

you wrap kind words around me without doubt.

your all i ever wanted and no matter what the world thinks.

i want you to stay with me.

for ever.

( about)

well i haven't updated in for ever soo i posted some random crap.

of course this is about alex and renji.

alex is very worried about what he is to the world, he is very self contious.
and often feels that he isn't good enough for renji.

but

renji on the other hand couldn't be more happy with him.

because ( like any boyfriend ) is insanlely in love with his lovers body, even if it isn't perfect. and when alex feels down renji is right there to lift him back up ^^

ohh yes. i was hopeing if oy guys had any questions about my characters pls feel free to ask ^^

to see again pt 3

* at the hotel *

renji was cuddled up with alex tightly in his arms.

" how are they?, your eyes i mean" renji gently felt the think bandage across his eyes, being sure not to harm him.

alex smiled, " im fine, do you want to see?" renji jumped at the thought. but your still pretty swolen you can't open your eyes yet." laughing alex sat up and began to undo the bandage. "its ok i can't open my eyes anyway, so theres nothing to worry about.", "fine" renji gently helped him remove the bandage, he slowly lifed it off reviling his seme-swolen and brused eyes. "how do they look?" alex said with a soft hint of shame, "aww they look soo painful, you sure they dont hurt?", renji shifted upwards as he stared at his face and slowly whiped his hair away."im sure, i promis you. just wait by tomorrow ill be like everyone else." alex smiled at the thought as a seriouse silence fell acros the room. renji pause in worry. "alex... no matter what you see, please don't change how you feel about me or anyone else ok?" alex frownd as his mind scaned the thought. "renji why would i do that, your the world to me, you accepted me when no one else would and you gave up everything to stay and help me when i was alone..." alex cringed, as he slowly put the bandage back on. renji helping tie it nuzzled into his chest as if he was a child. "alex... i did that cause i love you, and i would do anything for you, but... the truth is, i am soo afraid of looseing you. ever moment that your not with me kills. the only thing i can do is worry weitheror not you ok..so..so-" "ok i promis" alex interupted. he snuggled into renji and fell asleep. renji, watching over him stroked his hair and fell to his side.

mitsuki and kass came in with food movies and all of alexes favourite books. ( both braille and one that they read to him)

the night was filled with laughs and stories, all leading up to the next day, when alex would see for the frist time in 10 years.

to see again pt 2

(all) "ALEX!!"

renji, mitsuki and kass all jupmed up and ran to him.
the docotr who led him in smiled. "you can remove that bandages. but he won't beable to open his eyes till the swelling gose down." the doctor reached into his pocket and presented two small bottles of meds. "take these twice and these yellow ones when your in pain, ok?" he handed them kass for safe keeping.

"ok ill be sure he takes them" kass replied.

mitsuki walked over to join kass. "meds? hmmm i hope hes not in too much pain"
the doctor laughed "i dont think hes in pain." he point over to alex and renji, who were playfully cuddling and tickling.
mitsuki smiled. "there back to their normal selves." kass reached her hand around mitsuki's waist. "lets get something to eat, well leave them alone for now" "ok" mitsuki looked over to alex and renji. "me and kass are going to get some food well meet you in the hotel, ok?" renji renji drew his attention away from alex. "sure, ill get this spaz dressed and gather his stuff" he laughed as poke alex. "im not a spaz" crindging from the tickeling and poking.

mitsuki and kas left the room "cya later"

..:: roses are red ::..

roses are red, violets are blue...

hey.... hey!!!! renji tugged on alex's shoulder. wake up!. alex whiped his eyes and. and began to search for renji's face. ah ha ! there you are alex smiled as he gently felt his face, renji bent down and placed his forhead against his. you gonna get up anytime soon?. alex nodded and slowly got out of bed.

he began to start the day the way he always did, a routine that was ingraved in his mind. the only thing that made the days different were the little moments that came along with renji.
the shaving cream fights, the shared breakfasts , the teasing and playing but most of all the thoughtful touching and holding inbetween.
alex always loved the smell of renji's clothes, they smelt of peaches and flowers and anyother other soft sents, and renji always put it on, even if he didn't like it he was always sure to put it on.

mmmm, is this new? alex wraped around renji as he playfully put his face against his chest, sniffing and blushing, taking in the sweet air. renji blushed as he struggled to put a sentance together. y-yeah it is... i-i-..i got it yesterday.. umm d-do you like it? renji looked down as he stroked his head.
looking up, alex felt his face once again. your blushing arn't you alex gazed up guessing where his face was. renji jumped back trying to change the subject I-i'm not blushing its just alittle hot... s-so do you want to go or not, i mean the book store's got alot of audio stories out... and well it would really suck if we get there and all the good ones are gone... then you'd have to listen to my horribel reading... renji laughed as he looked away trying to clam himself. alex tugged at his shirt playfully. well then lets go already!. alexed shifted around umm renji.. could you help me find my guide stick..i-i think i missplaced it/B]. renji laughed as he looked over at the confussed alex no you didn't, I've got it rigth here. now lets go . alex paused. thank you, you know.. not many people would want to be seen with someone like me renji grabbed alex's hand and lead him to the door as he gently whispered into his ear.