Usually I don't do this, but I feel like it tonight.

I get that I messed a lot of shit up between me and him last year, but he still stayed with me, and still tells me that he loves me. I know it's hard trusting me again, but I'm true and dedicated to him, and I know that trusting me fully is gonna take a long long time, and I'm happy that he's still with me, even if we don't have a title. Knowing you still say "I love you" without any sex involved feels great, and probably why I can stand not having a title between us right now. But it hurts to hear that he doesn't think I miss him while he's spending 2 weeks in Europe. I love him. I seriously screwed up before, last year, but I love him and it probably sounds stupid coming from someone just entering college. I don't care. I'll keep trying to prove that I can be trusted.

I used to not treasure my relationships before because of a guy I used to be involved with. I forced him out of my life, he was no good for me. No matter what relationship you're in, if you recognize that it's good treasure it. Treat it special, otherwise you'll end up in my mess--all because I didn't appreciate what I had right in front of me.